I've been trying to find an active fibromyalgia forum online. I just need some place
I'm 21 and was diagnosed with fibro at 13. High school was a wreck for me (on and off homebound, graduated 10 credits under the requirement) and my motto the past two years has been that I've improved while I've been in college. This is my third year at community college and I hope to transfer to pharmacy school... someday. My first semester in college, Fall 06, I had straight As, was able to get up for my 9am class and only went one day over my allowed absences. I was working 23 hours per week as a cashier on top of it.
However, lately I feel like I've been getting worse and worse each semester. Withdrawing from classes is becoming a habit. I moved my first classes to 10am and I'm still not able to get in. I'm taking my electives online, but I can't keep up with the work without sacrificing my math/science grades. My grades are horrible and I've had to retake classes. I'm only working 17 hours per week at my new job (Pharm Tech).
If I take less classes, I lose my health insurance. If I work less, I can't pay my tuition. I sort of got around that dilemma last year when I became aware of medical withdraw (withdraw from a class and get a refund to retake it). However, that of course is upping my withdraws.
I even took steps last spring towards getting the fibro under control. I take Lyrica when I wake up and before I go to bed. I take Concerta with my Lyrica in the morning, as well as a cup of coffee. I take Tylenol PM on most nights with my Lyrica. I've been back in therapy for almost a year now and go every other week.
I'm turning 22 soon and I just don't feel like I'm making any progress. I'm at my wits end with what to do (in tears writing this). I feel like I'm going to be in community college forever. I feel like my chances of getting into pharmacy school and then actually getting through pharmacy school is slipping through my fingers. I have my heart set on Pharmacy so bad. There just doesn't seem to be an end in site. I keep telling myself that next semester I can do it and then I stumble yet again.
I feel so alone at the moment. My mom has fibro as well, but for certain reasons at the moment (other things going on in our household) I just don't feel like I can talk to her. Although my boyfriend is rather understanding toward fibro, he's been dealing with his depression issue lately... and I've felt like I have to be the strong one right now. Heh, and my therapist... the other things going on in my household has been occupying the last few sessions. My friends... keeping up image I guess.
Thanks to anyone who has read thus far. I just needed to get stuff off my chest.
Pre-Pharmacy Student. Retail Pharm Tech. Fibromyalgia.
MuseKill: the name I came up with for a personal domain when I was 15. At 21, I have no clue what it means. It's just my online pseudonym.
The difference between perseverance and obstinacy is that one comes from a strong will, and the other from a strong won't. ~Henry Ward Beecher
Post Edited (musekill) : 12/5/2008 4:29:49 PM (GMT-7)