i came here to cry for a minute..i am having such an awful day..i hurt so bad. and my stress levels are through the roof! i just need to talk, if that's ok?
(i should probably give some background on this, so sorry if it's long)
this past april, my brother in laws wife (soon to be ex wife now) accused him of something he did not do. there was no proof that he did what she said he did other than her word. to make a long story short, he stood trial for one major 25-life kind of charge, and two lesser charges. the jury was hung on the big charge, but found him guilty of the "lesser" charges. now please bear in mind that there was NO evidence, NO proof, nothing whatsoever. also, his soon to be ex has been known to be a liar, and exaggerator, as well as a very vindictive and self centered person. (there are many people who will attest to this) my b.i.l. on the other hand has a completely clean record, fabulous work history, many friends and church fellows who will attest to his honesty and integrity. i personally will attest to the fact that i have never seen him be mean to her in any way and i have also never seen him be anything but kind, gentle, and patient with my children, yet have also on a number of occasions seen her say horrible nasty things to my b.i.l. ("shut up" "i hate you" "f##% off and die", etc) and have also seen her yell at my children, as well as hit and yell at animals. yet she was believed and he was still found guilty, and as such i've watched my husband and his family fall to pieces these past few months. it's been really horribly awful.
well, today was the sentencing on the lesser charges, so everyone has been on edge even more so these past few days. i spent yesterday scrubbing my house from top to bottom as a way to distract myself, and so today woke up in a horrible flare-everything hurts SO BAD-hands, arms, legs, back, shoulders. my "zaps" have been really bad today and my energy level has been zero. to make matters worse, i woke up at 2 am this morning and got sick to my stomach and didn't fall back asleep until about
4:00 am, then the alarm went off at 6. got kids up, dressed, to school, then spent the morning trying really hard to distract myself from what today was, but then i got the call from the courthouse that my b.i.l. was sentenced to 3 1/2 years in prison. PRISON! for something he did not do! my hubby's so upset, my in laws are devastated, i ache from my hair to my toes, but i have been making myself stay "up" for everyone all day because i feel like someone should try to keep things moving-that and i can't let things fall apart here because that wouldn't be fair to my kids.
to make things even better, i had to call my mother and get all of the information about
what happens now because her husband spent some time in prison for drunk driving in the past and so she knows the "ins and outs" of the system. then i had to call and tell my m.i.l. what i found out, which made her burst in to tears, which made me feel even more awful than before..i had to tell her, though. she has to know the truth of what happens now.
anyway...it's after 8 now and the kids are in bed and things have "settled down" for the day, and now i am just ready to collapse from the pain and stress of the day and i really, really needed to vent somewhere. i can usually vent to my hubby, but i have not had the heart to tell him how bad i feel today because he has enough on his mind right now, so i came here...
i am also really sad and angry and shocked and frustrated at the system. i know it is in place for a reason, and i know that it usually works for the good, but this whole situation has been a total and complete legal nightmare and justice most definitely was NOT served and now my gentle natured b.i.l. has to spend the next 3+ years in prison (maybe more if they find him guilty of the "big" one at the retrial..)
it's all such a mess. i'm such a mess! i just want to curl up in bed and sleep for about
4 days straight...
thanks for listening to me...