I've been away for a few weeks - partly, because I need to ignore you all once in a while. Well, not you, exactly, but the fibro talk. I get sick of it. I get frustrated. I get so tired of being a part of it.
I was dx'd in April, and this "flare" is getting me down. I hurt all over, and now I have a cold. I can hardly function during the day. I am waiting for my disability policy through work to kick in; I have been without income since October 1st.
I think the hardest thing for me right now is not being able to plan - for anything. I never know how I will feel, and if I push myself, I'll pay for it later.
How long will my boss hold my job for me?
When will I feel good again?
What do I try next in the way of treatment(s)?
Will I ever by myself again?
I wish I knew definitively the answer to any of the above questions. But if there is anything you can count on with this dreaded disease, is unpredictability. I've learned that. Now I just need to accept it.
*Severe Spinal Stenosis, ACDF Surgery Levels C5-7, Jan 07, Degenerative Disk Disease, Osteoarthritis, Dx'd Atypical Migraines & Neuropathy Jul 07, Dx'd Fibromyalgia April 08,
GERD, Insomnia, Undiagnosed Inflammation with Elevated Sed Rate, C-reactive Protein
Mom to 2 College students +1 Exchange Student in Germany, stepMom to 2 marrieds, 8 stepGrands and my third job is being a pastor's wife.