I really needed to vent right now. I went to a Christmas party with friends. It was cool. And I wasnt nervous about
it at all! (thats a BIG success for me!) Anyways, I got hit with a pillow to the head by one friend, but it hurt horribly. My whole right side is just killing me... Well, as I was leaving I was jumping on the trampoline! (I love to do backflips and stuff!) So, I was showing my backflips to my friends...5 seconds later, my legs couldnt take it.... They felt VERY weak like I had completely lost them....When I jumped off I could barely walk.
I cried all the way home because they hurt so bad(similar to an incident last year when I was running around playing basketball) But, I cried because they hurt. Because I am going to the doctor tomorrow...and because I DONT WANT TO GO.
Im SO upset over it...I know Im making such a big deal out of it and it probably wont be that bad...normally I would like to go, since it IS my interest, but after all these years Im so tired of it... I feel like no one believes me. No one knows what I am talking about
. My arms and legs feel so heavy. I felt like I couldnt move. Not to mention its like 10 degrees outside. I only did 2 backflips and I couldnt breath. Coming home I seriously felt like I wasnt getting enough air. My chest was hurting. When I cough there is this strange weezing sound. (whenever I am out of breath this happens) And my breathing in is the same way.
So, in summary, good time, pilow to the head, headache, hurting all over, couldnt breath, cried, HURTING SO BAD right now, regretting the decision to jump on the trampoline. And wishing tomorrow was already over with....
I shall go cry myself to sleep now...........
(will update tomorrow after the doc if I feel up to it)
Thanks for allowing me to vent.
Lyrica and Paxil (both working quite well might I add!)
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."