Yah, I know what you mean. Writing these post are fun. I sit there sometimes for 5 minutes trying to get a word that should be simple and sometimes have to just give up and use a different word. The I go back and read the post and it's like OMG, how many run on sentences, miss spelled words and poor grammar can I put in a post. And I got a A+ in technical english in college and the highest grade points in my Algebra class. I took a Menza test when I was in my 20"s and scored 138, two points short of the genius line for that test. Now if you put a IQ test in front of me I know I would just be sitting there staring at it for 3 hours.
And I work in a Smoke Shop of all places. I don't smoke, but its the only job I could get that has almost no heavy mental or physical demands on me, and the guy is a friend that doesn't relate to the problem, but gives me the benefit of the doubt. Anyhow, being a smoke shop, and having worked there for a year and a half, I have seen the same customers hundreds of times, and I cannot remember what a single one of them smoke, and don't even recognize about 75 percent of them when they come in. For the first few months they would say, "the usual". I now have them all trained that there is no such thing as a usual for me. You have to tell me every time.
My memory and focus started to improve for about a month when I tested out taking very high amounts of Vitamin C in ascorbic acid form, like in the range of 1 or 2 grams every hour or two, and 800 milligrams of COQ 10 through the day. I did this because of a theory that Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is cumulative mitocondria damage from free radical cascades, and if you kept a high enough level anti-oxidents going in, the mitocondria might have a chance to start repairing themselves. Being Obsessive and willing to try "almost" anything, I did what the protocol recommended. I had a higher energy level right off the bat, and more clarity and better memory after awhile. I started to remember customers better and their "usuals" but I had to stop doing it. The high ascorbic acid levels were blowing the drugs out of my body as fast as I was putting them in, causing higher levels of muscle tension and pain. High levels of Vitamin C going in are notorious for detoxing any chemical out of the blood stream fast.
Bloody catch 22's on this are nuts.
This is a normal brain. "ZOOM!" This is a brain on Fibro. "ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ"
Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue, IBS, Diverticulitis, Costocondritis, Mild Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy, Mild Hilar Lymphodenopathy, Depression, Anxiety. Near Constant Dyspnea. Disequilibrium, prolonged standing, walking, progresses late in day.
Klonopin, Percocet, Baclofen, Ibuprofen, Valerian, Greens Plus, Magnesium, Vitamin C, COQ 10, B Complex, Glucosomine, Condrotin, MSM.