and welcome. I'm sorry to hear all you're going through. Have you considered counseling for yourself? It sounds like a little outside help would be beneficial for you. I know you said you couldn't afford the couples counseling but most communities including possibly your church offer free counseling services. Alanon is another organization to look into. I know you said his drinking has "slowed down" but his behavior is concerning even if he isn't an alcoholic. I hope my suggestion won't be taken in the wrong light.
love and light,
I have thought about
this with my church. I know that if I begin something, even by myself, he will be offended. It has gotten to where he is ultra sensitive (I can't prove my love to him unless I'm making sacrifices in accordance to what he feels is a true sacrifice) usually involving something I don't enjoy. I have had talks with him about
his drinking and his behavior while he drinks even if it is not that often (by getting better I mean he drinks one or two days on the weekend now). He is very hurt by the fact that I may think he is an alcoholic or has any problem. He says that I can't blame a "drink". I never have said alcohol itself is the issue, it is how he behaves when he drinks. He also seems very pouty and controlling. Don't worry about
offending me, I am way past that at this point!!!