Dear Jenna: I am writing for the third time today, Vista, my operating system ate two posts already. So, you are not taking anything for BiPolar, Fibromyalgia, and OTC. Not to mention " unrealistic fears". That is why I have been seeing a psychiatrist for most of my life to help me sort out what is realistic and what is not realistic. I also am a Fibromite with BiPolar disorder, as is most of my family on Maternal side. Without a trustworthy objective observer, I would not know. I know I suffered a lot as a child and youth, thinking I wasn't good enough, didn't fit in, I thought people were making fun of me, and I was scared to go to school. It took years of counselling and yes, some medication, for me to get a handle on when a fear was realistic or not. Is there an objective observer, like friends or parents who tell you they are "unrealistic".? I ask that because as a BiPolar person myself, and having it through-out my entire family, often, the fear may be rooted in reality or it may not be. Years later school chums told me they thought I was pretty cool, back then, but nonetheless, the signals I got were rejection.
The pain issue (associated with Fibro) can be treated with a minimum of medication. I am not telling you what to do, but I hurt just thinking you are weathering today, without comfort from the Fibro Flare. Someone mentioned a "warm bath," I like mine a bit on the hot side, epson salts (or bath crystals) will sometimes soak away some of the pain.
One big thing I have learned is that if I don't stop and take rest periods through-out the day, if I over do it, I will pay the price in pain. So, I do try not to over do it.I am sorry you feel so awful. I wrap myself in an electric blanket, get my "bed buddy" heated up, and put those heat patches, like you put in mittens, all over my body, wherever it hurts. I end up looking like a bulletin board.
Please consider getting some medication for the pain, something for the BiPolar. I prefer some of the older, time tested meds, like valium. It is true for me anyway, that all my stress congeals in certain vulnerable muscles in my body. Not the same, everyday, plus muscle spasms. The valium, when I have it (Doc gives me a limited ammt.), takes away some pain by relaxing the muscles, takes away the irritability I feel from BiPolar, and helps with the OTC and fear.
Hypothyroidism, Fibromyalgia, Facet Joint Syndrome, High Blood Pressure, menopause, Migraines, Chest Pain, Anxiety and Depression/BiPolar II