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   Posted 1/23/2009 7:10 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello. I just wanted to introduce myself. I'm turmoyle, I'm in my early 30's, and I live in northern California. For the last 3 years, I have been living with chronic musculoskeletal pain. It pretty much hurts everywhere all the time, but is the worst in my shoulders, lower back, buttocks, and legs. While my pain is never strong enough to be debilitating, it is a constant nuisance that is destroying my confidence and inducing depression. Over the last year I have brought up my pain several times to doctors, but they never seem to take me seriously. Every medical person I come into contact with gives me some blanket response like "you probably have a herniated disc" and tells me to perform exercises to strengthen my core muscles. Needless to say, the exercises never help and I always end up back at square one. Lately, my right has leg has started to feel "heavy," my right foot feels swollen but visibly looks no different than the left one, and I get strange hot and cold sensations in my right foot and calf. When I mentioned this problem to a doctor, she told me it's "probably your muscles." Great! That helps a lot. No matter how much I stretch and massage my right leg, however, the tightness and feeling of heaviness never goes away. Lately, this leg problem is making driving very uncomfortable, which is only making me more depressed.

I should mention that I've suffered from anxiety my whole life. I don't tend to have anxiety attacks, but I do feel like I'm in constant fight or flight mode. I'm frequently grouchy and tense, and I tend to jump sideways when a loud noise happens nearby. I worry about everything incessantly, and I'm pretty much constantly convinced I'm developing some sort of nasty disease. I've never actually talked to a doctor or therapist about this, and maybe I should.

I don't have any friends to speak of. All of my relationships have fallen apart in the last year. I live with my parents, I have no social life, no career, and the feeling that I'm going nowhere. What I really need is someone or something to save me as my life just keeps getting worse and worse.

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   Posted 1/23/2009 8:15 PM (GMT -7)   
Welcome to the forum.  I'm thinking about your post but don't have enough "spoons" left to put up a long reply tonight. Which is a good way to intro the stickies (see the Spoon Theory).

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   Posted 1/23/2009 9:56 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello, Turmoyle, and welcome to our forum. I'm sorry you are having such a bad time right now. I think your own suggestion is a great place to start- it could be very helpful to have some of these discussions with a therapist. I have reached out several times in my life when things were too confusing to unravel on my own. You mentioned many things that you are dealing with- depression, anxiety, insufficient support system. Any of these alone is hard to handle; all of them together most likely are too much to handle alone. It sounds as tho you are nmot getting the attention you need from the medical profesionals you are seeing. I would like to encourage you to make an appointment with a therapist, perhaps at your local county mental health provider, to talk through your situation, and the therapist should be able to refer you to a GP/Internist with whom she can follow up about your appointments and progress. Together they can help you stabilize the pain and frustration and work toward a treatment plan that works for you. I hope you find someone to assist you in getting past this tough time in your life. Let us know how you are doing. We are always here to listen and offer help if we can.
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   Posted 1/23/2009 10:46 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi, and welcome.  I have anxiety and fibro and experience most of the symptoms you describe, especially the leg-thing.  I don't feel a heaviness but the 'tightness'...almost like the skin has contracted around the muscle and bone.  My feet feel like they are swollen(they aren't) and I get a sensation like there is cold water dripping on my skin.  Pain also in all the places you mention...a gnawing ache.

I have had all kinds of tests run and have been told it is anxiety and fibro.

To ease your mind, my advice is to get checked out by a doc who takes you seriously.  Take it from me, worrying about what it 'could be' will only intensify the symptoms.  And this is just my personal opinion...Googling symptoms is the worse thing you can do if you have anxiety. 

Feel better



fibro, menieres disease, RLS, anxiety disorder, disc compression, scoliosis, spinal stenosis TMJ  Meds: Lexapro and valium

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   Posted 1/23/2009 10:52 PM (GMT -7)   
Welcome turmoyle!

Glad to have you as part of our family! Even if you don't have fibromyalgia you are welcome here. But, since this IS the fibro forum...I would also suggest getting a referral to a rheumatologist. They are the ones who usually confirm a diagnosis of fibro, when all else fails. I also agree with others that you have likely made one of your own best recommendations...counseling can not only help the anxiety but also help you deal with whatever pain your body is experiencing.

Keep in touch and we are always here if you need a friend!
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   Posted 1/24/2009 12:01 AM (GMT -7)   
Have you suggested fibro to your doc or asked for spec appt with a rheumy to be diagnosed.  I suffer chronic depression and never leave the house, I have no external family or friends so I know what you mean. I sometimes wonder what is worse, my pain or my depression.  You need to cover all your bases it took me along time to get treatment and get docs to listen.  sue2z sad sad
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   Posted 1/24/2009 12:35 AM (GMT -7)   

turmoyle, it is nice to meet you.  I had alot of your anxiety symptoms too.  Before I was dx'd with Fibro I lived in a constant state of fight/flight.  Every muscle in my body was tense & I couldn't seem to relax no matter how hard I tried.  I had those tension headaches that crawl up the back of your neck , up the back of the head & over into my eyes.   I did seek out a theropist & found I was so depressed & stressed out.  An anti-depressant was helpful.  I also found I was allergic to soy, which is in everything processed now-a-days & that was a large contributing factor to the fight/flight feelings I had.  Too much adrenelin pumping through my system, my bodies way of fighting the soy.  Lastly, was the dx of Fibro & the decision that I had to lead a simplier life, a more peaceful life.  You are definitely on the right road.  So, get yourself a new Doctor who will listen to you. 

I had a problem with getting across to doctors that I was in pain.  I guess I didn't make it "loud" enough because I actually had a doctor say, "Well, you don't seem to have much pain to deal with", & that was after I had told him where I hurt.  I have a tendency to hold it all inside but maybe if you are not being heard you need to be more vocal about it.  I have learned this myself.

Please feel free to come here and vent or cry or just read & laugh.  Welcome, hugs, Denise

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   Posted 1/24/2009 12:54 AM (GMT -7)   
Turmoyle, welcome to the family, you are always welcome here. I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia in december and have found this forum to help me out a lot.. everyone is wonderful here!! I have experienced a lot of what you are feeling, the "heaviness" in your foot, the feeling of being "swollen" when it looks completely normal... I am truly sorry you are going through a rough patch in your life.. a therapist will listen to you and help you feel like you're getting back on track.. he/she should be able to work with you to feel confident in getting your life back together... just take it from me, if you do see a therapist, don't hold ANYTHING back, you will not get anywhere by hiding things inside.. we are also all here for you if you need to vent and talk and ask questions.. however, a professional therapist will be able to do much more than we can. And I definately recommend seeing a rheumotologist for your pain, because we all at this forum know that constant, chronic pain and suffering only leads to severe depression, an empty, helpless feeling which is the worst feeling in the world... I know what you are going through. You are not alone. 3 years is long enough; Seek some professional help and stick around here and hopefully you will be feeling better and in more control before you know it!! Don't give up finding a doctor who takes you seriously. Please keep us posted!
Take care!!
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   Posted 1/24/2009 8:34 AM (GMT -7)   
I find relief from regular Chiropractor visits.....
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   Posted 1/24/2009 8:45 AM (GMT -7)   
Welcome Turmoyle,i  am so sorry for your pain and loss of hope.I myself have been fighting for a concret dx for 2 yrs and know what it feels like to live in a bubble.A rehmy doc is probably going to be your best bet,as Chutz said.Please feel free to load your burden on us,we have all been there,we understand,in one way or another.It never fails to amaze me how alot of these doctors got the medical license,so much for the Hippocratic oath.There are good docs out there,just hard to find.Our prayers are with you....

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   Posted 1/24/2009 9:56 AM (GMT -7)   
Pervasive Pain Disorder, that is what my therapist calls my fibro. By the way, Turmoyle, welcome, sure sounds to me like you're in the right place, here. My Pdoc (shrink) doesn't believe in Fibro, refuses to discuss it. Fortunately, my PCP Primary Care Physician prescribes my meds forr fibro. My Pdoc thinks I'm using the Fibro to get meds to zone me out because my life always was a mess. Parents divorced when I was 10, Mother was seriously BiPolar, suddenly had to grow up fast and take care of other two kids and mentally deranged Mom. Soooooo, the shrink says, I'm numbing out with the pain meds so as not to feel my feelings. He might have a little point there, about 20% correct. Yes, I would dearly love to block those years out. What I feel is the culmination of a rough life, having injured most muscles and connective tissue in my body, and it Never Healed. I will ask him, if he was ever injured playing racket ball, or such, pulled a hamstring, felt the pain for a while, and then it healed. What if his body were incapable of healing? Then he gets another injury, say, slipped and fell on the ice. Twisted wrist and left foot. Never healed.Then they all add up to a very sore, achy body 90% of the time. I'm afraid to go to sleep b/c I know how Bad I will feel in the AM. I'm afraid to make a date or an appointment b/c I never know how I'll feel. And, if I push through the pain, which I have done many times, I pay the price threefold. Finding a Rheumy is a good idea. They have to give you something for bad days. Good Luck.

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