Hello Everyone. It's almost 1am here and I still cant fall asleep, I'm not even tierd. I did a terrible thing today and I'm paying the price big time. I hate doing laundry because we have no washer or dryer hookups inside our apartments so we have to share this small laundry room with 6 buildings, with only 3 washers and 3 dryers and the people here are so ghetto they're always stealing stuff so I dont trust to leave my stuff their and I cant sit their and wait for it, and its 2 buildings down so carrying it that far is a pain. I usually do laundry at my dad's (he has one of those new big washer and dryer that does like 3 regualer loads at once) but I hate going up and down his stairs, my body just cant tolerate it. So I let all my laundry pile up til we where completly out of clothes, my daughter had to wear dirty pants today cause she doesnt have any clean ones anymore and my son was out of shirts, and I was out of jeans and we all where out of socks. So I decided to take them all the laundry mat to get them all done at once. Also I have been letting a friend stay with me for a while til she get things figured out cause she was kicked out of the house she was staying in and her family doesnt want to talk to her, so I told her she could stay for about
a month til she finds somewhere to go. I asked my friend to please help me do laundry cause I had 5 baskets packed up with dirty clothes til they where all overflowing. Well she took off with some guy and never came back when she said she would to help me, so I had to do it all by myself, and about
half way through with carrying the clothes from the washers to the dryers and folding my back was starting killing me, so I kept had to keep sitting down. By the time I folded them all, got them back in the van, and came home and put the clothes away and cleaned up the livingroom and my bedroom I was in so much pain. NOW I'm sitting here with my whole body aching so bad I can barely move. I feel like I was hit by a truck. And then I started feeling feverish so I took my tempature and I have a low grade fever. I just got over strep throat and before that bronchitas, now something else seems to be showing up, I just so tierd of being ill, and a flare on top of it. My friend called me about
10pm and I refused to answer the phone, I'm very upset with her. I'm giving her a place to stay when nobody else wanted her, rent free, and she cant even help me with some chores. I just want to cry, I'm so overwhelmed physically and mentally. Do you guys think its normal to have a low grade fever with a bad flare, or is this something else completly?? Sorry for ranting on, I needed to vent before I had a breakdown and I feel like I have nobody else to tell that would understand and I know you guys do. Thank you for listening.
I have Migraines, Pancreatic Divisum, Severe lower back pain (possibly turned to arthiritis from lack of treatment), Fibromyalgia, Asthma, Depression w/Anxiety/panic, and Asthma
Meds: Suboxone 8mg 3xday for pain, Cymbalta 60mg @ night for depression & Fibro,
Lyrica @ night for Migraines and Fibro, Treximet as needed for Migraines,
Ventolin Albuterol Inhaler as needed for Asthma Attacks.
Been on Diability since I was 22 for Migraines and chronic Pancreatitas but going to college Spring '09 to be a nurse
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