Hi, Rach! Yes, I did have my sadness and anger with fibro. When it hit me I was in extreme pain. I was just watching television and my feet started to hurt, then my ankles, then knees, etc. When it got to my elbows, it was like I banged my "funny bone" and I had that extreme pain and like electrical shocks going down into both arms and hands and it stayed that way for over two weeks without stopping. I was crying all of the time. I couldn't sleep, work, rest, etc. I had three children ages 12, 9, and 8 years old. I couldn't believe that this could have happened to me and I was really ticked about it. The more I thought about the pain, the worse I felt. My doctor knew it was fibromyalgia but only put me on aspirin. My ears were ringing so badly from that that he switched me to ibuprofen and I've been taking that ever since.
I just realized that my frustration and anger made me feel worse, it didn't help the fibro one tiny bit, and no one wanted to be around me. Even the dog stayed away! LOL I also realized that it was fear feeding into this, too. You know, the fear of how my future would be. Then, when reading the Bible, I came across the scripture I have in my signature. That helped me so much...realizing God gave me a spirit of power and of love and of a sound mind. I figured with that for me, I could definitely handle anything fibro dished out.
I decided to face fibro head on and start controlling it instead of it controlling me. I looked at my situation and realized that I not only had a loving family, a roof over my head, and food on my table, I also had sooo many things to be thankful for. I was better off than 98% of the people on the face of this earth AND I didn't have an illness that would kill me. I could still live my life pretty much the way I wanted to but I would have to learn how to work around the fibro so that's what I've done for 22 years. I also knew I would always have pain. I think that some people try to be pain-free. That would be nice but it rarely happens with fibro so I accepted the illness and worked from that point on. I don't expect to be pain-free. When having a good day, I totally enjoy it and I DO NOT overdo. I carry on the way I usually do.
Rach, I've done more than I ever imagined I could ever do! I have several health issues but am too stubborn to allow them to dictate my life. So, I live life as if I didn't have these things. With fibro and some of the other problems I have, I do have to plan ahead. Once on a trip I decided I wanted to parasail. It always looked neat to me but then I would get that nagging fear about if it would cause pain...especially when landing. But, I remembered the scripture and cast my fate to the wind, no pun intended, and went for it. It was magnificent and my fibro didn't stop me from that memory.
So, we here on this forum are here to help one another. We have little tricks that have helped us get around problems so we can live our lives the way WE want to live them. Keep a positive attitude. Be thankful for all that you CAN do and don't think about what you have difficulty doing. Focus on your interests, your family, your hobbies, and the pain fades some in the background. Try to keep your pain under control. You need to work closely with your doctor. I use ibuprofen with food, Tylenol, and malic acid/magnesium supplements. These all help me keep my pain under control...not pain free. Keep a good sense of humor...especially when it comes to the fibro fog. All of these things will help. You are a strong person. It's amazing what the human spirit is capable of doing and you can do it if you really put your mind to it. Pace yourself but yet get busy doing something you enjoy doing or something that makes you feel good. When I start doing something I don't like to do, I just remember how good I'll feel when I get it accomplished! That helps keep me happy.
I hope this has given you some good ideas to help you get out of that funk. Once you do, you will feel better, have less stress, and most likely have less pain. Enjoy your life. You only have one shot on this earth so make the best of it. There is beauty all around you so enjoy it.
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God does not give us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7
Post Edited (Sherrine) : 2/3/2009 4:14:07 PM (GMT-7)