Hi, I am AwfulinAustin.
Just a little information, hope I can limit it. I have suffered from a diagnosed depression for 12 years. I'm sure I had depression long before that. I had an ulcer at the age of 6. Ten in the family and if you were one of the last ones, you'd have an ulcer too. I would have to say everyone of us have depression. Unfortunately, I've lost 3 brothers tragically. My oldest brother, Rev. was diagnosed with diabetes and committed suicide in the psychiatric ward on a 24 hour watch. Another brother I lost 3 years ago to a rare illness called sclerosing cholangitis and he also had diabetes. Another brother died in June from his long standing juvenile diabetes, had a seizure and was on life support, but came back to us, but was incompetent when he came back. (I need to tell you this because of this situation, my sister, Patti, changed his beneficiary to herself.) My mother had been my brothers beneficiary for 34 years. He was married twice and divorced twice and still kept his beneficiary in my mom's name. Even when my father passed away it was originally Mom & Dad, and Dad passed away and he changed it in 6 days to just my Mom. So..needless to say, the stress has made everything just worse. Also, my sister is in Hospice and has very little time to live.
We moved to Texas 3 years ago and everything was fine at this point, besides the depression and anxiety disorder and social phobia which was diagnosed when my ex came back into my life. Now that is a long story...but basically he never saw my daughter until she was in the 5th grade and after he came back into my life, I went downhill from that point. I fought back with therapy and moving to Texas.
I cannot figure out my illness and I know my doctors can't figure me out either. I am trying to figure out if I have fibromyalgia or hypothyroidism at this point. I am now being treated for fibromylagia with Tramdol and also I am on anti-depressants, Effexor XR, Diazapam, Busparinone, Seroquel, Hydroxyl Xl, Fexofenadine (HIVES), and also generic Synthroid.
So, here comes the real story. I had a Hysterectomy in Dec. 2007 with a bladder retention lift (In at 7 out at 12 the same day with a catheter in me). I never really felt good after this surgery. In June my brother passed away, but I knew I needed to go back and have surgery again, because the bladder repair didn't work. On September 2, I had a cystocele & rectocele surgery. After 8 weeks of NOT HEALING, my doctor finally threw up his hands and said, that the only way I would heal would be to put more stitches in me. Needless to say, I had no idea what that meant. Well, after 4 nurses walking in, 2 to hold my legs, one to hand instruments and one to help him put the stitch in me and this all done in the OFFICE under no meds at all. I know I went into Shock. The next day, I got the hives and he mistreated it with the wrong meds and I ended up in the emergency room to be prescribed the "RIGHT MEDS". I also now had to go through another surgery because I still never did heal. He sent me to a urogynecologist and had surgery again in October.
From this point on...I have NEVER felt good. And to this DAY, I still have hives. I developed all the signs of a low thyroid but my thyroid reading was 5.9 which isn't too high, but went to a Endocrinologist which said that my level should be 1.19 because that is my best level for me. So, they are still working on that. But, I have all the symptoms of Fibromyalgia. EVERY SINGLE ONE. So, trying to figure out what is wrong with me, because I have no energy. I've lost the love of my passion to scrapbook and now have gained 20 lbs. OBTW - I have a resting heart rate of 129, yet my blood pressure is 100/60.
FIBROMYLAGIA????? Please help me in Austin.