Posted 4/9/2009 9:10 AM (GMT -6)
Not in your head KitKat. The buldgeing disk can go back into place, but you actually have to do something usually for them to go back in place, like frequent back traction, but I don't know, I am as lost on this as you are. Back pain, chest pain, rib pain, numbness and pain in arms, digestion a mess that pushes upward and makes me feel like its some form of gerd without the burning. sense of breathing problems, dizziness. Can't walk down a sidwalk 50 feet without by back acheing. The fact of the matter is if I took those symptoms to a Doctor, again, by the time he was done running all those expensive test and probably finding nothing, on my visits to him or her, they wouldn't even talk to me more then about 30 seconds, they wouldn't want to listen to my complaints anymore and though they might not say it, in their heads my problem would be that I have a somaform disorder, which yes, is a fancy word for your subconscious conflicts and the way you think is the cause of the problems.
I think its a bunch of BS. I think fancy words like Somaform disorders and simple ones like Hypochondria, which are basicaly the same thing except that Hypochondria is one type of Somaform disorder and they have about a dozen types, is a escape hatch for the Doctors not being able to solve real problems.
Its true that the mind can make a person sick, but not to the degree your having. There was a time I was doing almost everything right for years. Swimming a half mile in the morning, working some, resting, doing some hiking in the afternoon, getting lots of body therapy. I was generally in a good mood, had no subconscious conflicts and pretty much thinking positively despite the problems. I still had lots and lots of issues going on that they wouldn't have found a cause for then either. Those problems were a prelude to where its at not.
Its not in your head. Its more like they don't have medical technology, diagnostic capacity up to a level that can tell you whats really going on. A hundred years from now, this will look like the infancy of modern medicine, like we view what they did back in the 15 and 16 hundreds the dark ages of medicine. If you had these problems back then they would probably be drilling a hole in your head to let the bad spirits out and killing you in the process, or bleeding you, or covering you in leaches, or if the pain, depression and anxiety drove you nuts, probably hanging you in a cage. They are no more correct today on whats going on with you then they would have been back then.
All you can do Kit is what you can do and try to take heart in the fact that at least technology has reached the point we can support each other in how we feel and that were with you. We do understand and we have the ability to communicate so were not alone anymore. I remember a women back when I was a child 40 years ago that had these kinds of problems. She was basically treated by everyone as the biggest Hypochondriac in the world and totally lazy. She had to hide in her house her whole life in misery with no one that understood. Even my mother that went to clean for her condemned her ever time she left. I asked my mother months ago to describe all the symptoms the women complained of and questioned her about a bunch of others. The women obviously had Fibro. My sister has Fibro bad, wheelchair bad and the family now cuts her the slack she deserves. I told my mother, you know, all those people condemning that poor women her whole life was the same thing as if we were condemning your daughter and me right now, that these problems are all in our heads and were weak and just lazy. Ignorance and judgementalism. Drives me nuts. Probably one of my subconscious conflicts.
I am not much of a hugger Kit, but /hugs. Hang in there kit.
Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue, IBS, Diverticulitis, Costocondritis, Thorasic Degeneration, Mild Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy, Mild Hilar Lymphodenopathy, Depression, Anxiety. Dyspnea. Disequilibrium.
Klonopin, Percocet, Baclofen, Ibuprofen, Valerian, Greens Plus, Magnesium, Vitamin C, COQ 10, B Complex, Niacinamide, Glucosomine, Condrotin, MSM, L-Carnitine, D-Ribose.