Hmmm, fully awake. Maybe 1 day in 3 for a couple of hours in the morning and then its all down hill from there.
I have two different sleep patterns. One at this point takes drugs to go to sleep. If I am working my 3 days a week, I am so mentaly and physicaly exhausted that I go home, eat dinner, try to watch TV and will fall asleep, something on the order of pass out within an hour of laying down. So I am dead out of it by 7 pm, will wake up 2 am, usually go back to sleep in a medium sleep level, wake up almost dead on at 4 am. At this point I have gotten 8 or 9 full hours of sleep and my mind is awake and telling me I have had enough sleep, but its a lie, and its also 4 am and my store opens at 10 am and I don't want to get up, so I take the Klonopin, pain killer, Gabapentin at 4 am and sleep lightly till 7 am.
Then there is version two. I am on my 4 days off a week. I am still totally tired all day, but I lay down early in the late afternoon and this tends to bring me around and I am wide awake till midnight and have to take the Klonopin to put me to sleep, and I still wake up at exactly 4 am with 4 hours of sleep, take the pain killers and maybe light sleep or lay there until 7 am.
So it would seem my choice is either completely exhaust a body and mind that doesn't stand up to it, and sleep, but never regain my energy level, or guard my exertions and rest more, and have a problem sleeping that requires drugs.
I would give my right arm, or at least a finger that would normalize my sleep pattern to where 3 nights a week I am not passing out and 4 nights a week I am a night owl.
Either way though. Full nights sleep or 4 hours, its still dead tired the next day and if I manage to get two hours in the morning I am clear headed I am surprised.
The only time my sleeping patterns have been consistent in 8 years years is on that 100 milligrams of Amitryptelene, Paxil, Klonopin. Then it was real simple. Take the Amitryptelene and Klonopin, wake up 10 to 12 hours latter, stagger out of bed, sit on the step by my door, smoke a cigarette and watch the world spin for 15 minutes. Then you have your choice of feeling like all you want to do is lay down all day, well, unless you get up to a fairly strong dose of some SSRI, then you might get some get up and go for awhile, or drink a load of coffee and that might wake you up and then you can feel stressed out on the caffiene.
But at least you sleep well.
Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue, IBS, Diverticulitis, Costocondritis, Thorasic Degeneration, Mild Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy, Mild Hilar Lymphodenopathy, Depression, Anxiety. Dyspnea. Disequilibrium.
Klonopin, Percocet, Baclofen, Ibuprofen, Valerian, Greens Plus, Magnesium, Vitamin C, COQ 10, B Complex, Niacinamide, Glucosomine, Condrotin, MSM, L-Carnitine, D-Ribose.