The picking up the groceries thing and handing the money to the kid thing to pay for it and hauling to get outside got me. I did that one for months when I was raising my daughter and she was about
17. That's when I knew my stress level was really climbing. Shopping has been a real drag for a long time, but when the stress level was to much to even check out, if I had a way out of it, I was getting on the edge of the cliff then. I kept telling everyone around me for months, to please back off, I was barely hanging in there. Nobody understood or heeded the warnings and finally big crash number two happened.
And the result of that became this after my daughter hit 18 and moved out to live with her husband of 8 years now.
I had Agoraphobia for about
6 months bad. It started off as something sort of benign after losing my home business and home and feeling like I just had to escape. My brother invited me to come to his house and gave me, rented me a room. I still had money left to support myself for a couple of years. Till then, moving to his place, I had been going through a heavy bout of anxiety, pain, breathing problems for about
a year and a half. So, I went to his house and he introduced me to playing this online game that totaly fixated me. As long as I was fixated, I was relaxed. I was very comfortable just sitting in that bedroom playing that game. It got to the point I didn't want to come out, then it turned into a fear of going out after a couple of months. Just going out to shop once a week took all I could muster to go out the door. It finally reached the point that having to go out that once a week was causing panic. I finally realized that if I didn't get my life back out of that bedroom I was going to lose it completely, packed up all my stuff and headed back west. Within a couple of days I was fine again being out, well, as fine as you can be when the day is slowly or sometimes speedily going to pot on your body and brain.
Anyhow, as long as you keep going out, you shouldn't developed a really extreme problem with leaving your safe haven at home.
For me, I have to get out. Even if I have a home business I can do, there is no way I could go from my bed to eating something to working. I have to get out for at least 2 or 3 hours minimum first thing in the day and usually run it up to about
2 pm in the afternoon. By then I am dragging everywhere and ready to just go home and do whatever is left that I can do, which is usually either rest watching TV, or go back and forth from that to the computer, or sleep.
Real agoraphobia starts off as just a reluctance to go out and face stress and anxiety triggers when staying home feels better. As long as you continue going out that is about
where it stays, a reluctance to go out. If you quit going out that reluctance can turn to dread, but staying home all the time isn't a answer, because the anxiety and stress finally follows you into your safe spot. Being there becomes just as bad.
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