So I finally called my insurance company and my doctor and made the very emotional appointments and arraignments to get a wheelchair. At this point I dont need it 24/7 (besides, I cant push it myself! what a joke that would be!) With the nice weather coming up, I am hoping that it will be an investment in my family and my marriage and they wont have to hear me say, "Oh, I dont think I can do that." At least as much anyway!
The lady I talked to for my insurance company was so nice! I actually hung up the phone saying I loved her! hahaha How often does THAT happen with customer service?!? She was so patient with my fibrofog, even after she tried to read to me a web address at the speed of light and when my brain was more focused on her doing the stupid "D as in dog, N as in Nancy" bit instead of the actual web address (OMG I got soooo lost!) she didnt give up on me like I expected...she just giggled along with me and said, "How about
I read to you the phone numbers of the wheelchair providers closest to you?" OMG, genius and kind. Love her!
Then I called my Doc for the appointment I needed for the script
for the chair. And even though I am proud of myself being able to decipher all this medical mumbo-jumbo and do this advocacy for myself (stuff that a little voice in the back of my head is angry b/c it shouldnt be so ^%$#@ hard but it is for us!) I am sad and full of tears as I say my name, DOB, reason for appointment b/c I have that same pit in my stomach like when I start a new stronger pain med.....like I am crossing a line that I may never cross back over.
I am trying to focus on the positive. The freedom, less pain, more options. I can go up and down the Boardwalk this summer and not slow anyone down.
But still...there is that angry and sad voice...this isnt what I expected to be doing when I was 36. Oh well, wasnt it the great John Lennon that said, "Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans."
lost in philly
Fibromyalgia, Endometriosis, Migraines, Asthma, Chronic Fatigue
Topamax, Morphine, Effexor, Abilify, Crestor, Resoril, Loestrin, Imitrex
B12, Magnesium, Melatonin, Omega3
"Knowing without doing is like plowing without sowing."