I lost a best friend..

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   Posted 5/19/2009 3:13 PM (GMT -7)   

Today at 2:30 I lost one of my best friends.  His name was Zeke.  He was my golden boy. 

Zeke was almost 10 years old and he was my frist best friend when I moved to Indiana.  Vince agreed, back in those days, that I needed someone to call my own, to feel better about moving away from my family, that I loved so much. 

Zeke was a pound puppy that stole my heart the minute I looked at his floppy ears and big sad brown eyes.  He was 1/2 cocker spaniel and 1/2 golden retriever.

Zeke went to heaven today and he took a big piece of my heart with him.

He died in my husband's arms.. he always longed for my husband's approval.. and he couldn't have been in a better place than being held by someone that approved of the dog that made me so happy.

I will miss him forever.

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   Posted 5/19/2009 3:19 PM (GMT -7)   
I am so terribly sorry for your loss, Big hugs!
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   Posted 5/19/2009 3:35 PM (GMT -7)   

I'm so sorry Patti.  So so sorry...I know that at any time now I will be making the same post.  It's a loss only an animal lover can understand.

Peace and many hugs


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   Posted 5/19/2009 4:35 PM (GMT -7)   

My arms are around you with a gentle warm hug. I know the feelings you are going through and it's so very hard. Please know that your heart will feel joy again and that you brought your boy a lifetime of happiness.

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   Posted 5/19/2009 4:42 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm so sorry...

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   Posted 5/19/2009 4:47 PM (GMT -7)   

Patti, I'm soooo sorry.  I know he was a part of your family and you will miss him dearly.  Big, gentle hugs for you.


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   Posted 5/19/2009 4:52 PM (GMT -7)   
Patti, I am sorry for you loss.

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   Posted 5/19/2009 4:56 PM (GMT -7)   
Patti, I hope in the days to come your tears will up for awhile and your heart will lighten.

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   Posted 5/19/2009 5:11 PM (GMT -7)   

How awful Patti.  I am truly sorry.


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   Posted 5/19/2009 6:33 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm so sorry for your loss, I really am. Believe me, I know what you are feeling now. I hope you can take some comfort in knowing that you gave Zeke a lifetime of love and happiness. You are grieving now and need to do that. The pain will lessen in time.

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   Posted 5/19/2009 6:35 PM (GMT -7)   
Patti - so sorry for your loss!!

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   Posted 5/19/2009 7:15 PM (GMT -7)   
Oh, Sweetie. I am so, so sorry for your loss :(

{{{{{{many, many gentle hugs}}}}}}
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   Posted 5/19/2009 8:58 PM (GMT -7)   
Patti, I'm so sorry for your loss.  Our pets truly are family members.  Hugs to you and your family.
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   Posted 5/19/2009 10:49 PM (GMT -7)   
Sweet Patti -- So sorry, deeply so.... Our furry babies are indelibly marked on our hearts forever, but the pain will get less with time and the dearest memories will remain. Precious Zeke will always be part of you; bless you for giving him as much as he gave you. Please know you are in so many thoughts...
Gentle hugs and affection to you.....
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   Posted 5/20/2009 3:05 AM (GMT -7)   
Dear Patti; It doesn't rain, but it pours for you, my dear. God must consider you a very strong person, he has given you so much to deal with, right now. There always comes a time, as we look back, that we come to understand why things happen the way they do, but in the midst of everything falling down around our ears, it seems we've been abandoned. You have not. Pour you heat out, Patti dear, sad as many here do. We often feel like it's our furkids that keep us sane. Another will appear on the horizon, in the weeks or months ahead, and you will see, not Zeke, as he will never be replaced, but another furkid, totally his or her own unique self, who will bring the joy back, when you're ready.

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   Posted 5/20/2009 3:06 AM (GMT -7)   
Patti, you write eloquently of a very difficult time. That is the best gift we can give our animal friends: a place to lay their heads at the last. Thank you for letting us share your pain.

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   Posted 5/20/2009 6:53 AM (GMT -7)   
Dear Patti I know the pain you are going through and I'm so sorry you lost Zeke. Like I told my DH last year when we lost Brandy don't think about the end, and like you we didn't let our baby suffer, but think of all the years of pleasure and joy he brought you. I don't know why God didn't give dogs a longer life span it doesn't seem fair.
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   Posted 5/20/2009 10:35 AM (GMT -7)   
I am so sorry.


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   Posted 5/20/2009 10:47 AM (GMT -7)   
Pattipanda, I'm so sorry for your loss. I've adopted many cats over the years and loved them all, but there was just one with whom I had that very special connection. The day we lost him was the worst day of my life. I know there's nothing I can say to make you feel any better right now. I'm so sorry.

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   Posted 5/21/2009 6:07 AM (GMT -7)   

Patti- I am sorry to hear about Zeke. cry He sounded so special!


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   Posted 5/21/2009 7:36 AM (GMT -7)   
Thank you.. Thank you.. Thank you ... One and all.
The pain is still so fresh in my heart reading your posts made me both happy and sad.  I still can barely say Zeke's name with out a tear to follow. shakehead   He was one in a million.  He had his little querks but that's what made him a wonderful best friend.  
He gave me lots of reasons to get out of bed in the morning .. he even knew that in order for me to be able to pull myself out of bed, when I was in tremendous pain, to lay at the foot of the bed so I could use the sheet and pull.  He never left the bed when I was in it. Nor did he leave my side when I was home.  He knew I needed him there for hundreds of reasons.
When I had surgery on my leg about 4 years ago the knew he wasn't to jump up on my lap.. he waited nearly 4 months and then one day.. he put his fluffy paw on my lap as if to say "is it O.K. now??.. Can I sit on your lap for a while and snuggle"  Zekey weighed 40 pounds but never quite understood that he was a pretty big dog to a small person like me.  He knew me better than I knew myself and for that I will be eternally greatful to him. 
Someday I know I will find another furbaby, but it will have to be just the right friend.  But as Tyno said.. he can never be replaced.   I will only adopt a dog that needs a home.  My home is pound puppy friendly. 
Again many thanks for all of your kind words.
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   Posted 5/21/2009 10:52 AM (GMT -7)   
Oh, Patti,
I'm crying for you as I write this... crying for myself as well. Darned dogs! They just waggle their way into your heart and leave the biggest hole when they are gone. I had to put my older, arthritic dogs, a dalamation and black lab to sleep just before the kids moved in with us. I held each of them while they died and my heart broke. I came home to the year old Lab and the boxer (kids' dog) all happy and jumping and could barely pet them.

But I can't seem to be without a dog. Gotta have that barking burglar alarm to keep me safe from the attack squirrels and real burglars. Gotta get up and out to walk and brush and care for her.

(Sigh!) My heart goes out to you.
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   Posted 5/21/2009 4:36 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm so sorry for your loss.

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   Posted 5/22/2009 5:13 AM (GMT -7)   

I'm so sorry to hear about Zeke. I think that each one of us understands the comfort and joy of a pet. Animals are the only things that truly love us unconditionally. I know that he left his paw prints on your heart. cry Please know that I will be thinking of you and your family.

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   Posted 5/22/2009 7:15 AM (GMT -7)   
Wow, Patti, I am so sorry for your loss! You were obviously very loving caregivers to your 4 legged friend and that is the best thing you could have given him. He lived his life knowing he was loved.


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