Been there, oh yeah. "All the world a stage, and we, but actors." I was in AA. I walked the walk for twelve years. Mainly b/c I had children to support, love, ha, working three jobs, 1 full, two PT, hard to give them everything they needed. I wish you all the best. The serenity prayer is so apt, learn what you can and cannot control. Truth is, all any of us can control are, ourselves. Nobody can influence events. man plans, God laughts. You get what you get. For whom much is given, much is required. Is there anything else, I can say, except the only thing to fear, is fear itself. 90% of what we worry about
, never happens. You might think people are noticing you, they're not. They're thinking about
whether they need to buy diapers and dog food on the way home from work, and how in the name of Sam Hill are they going to make the bills at months end, and which they can let slide. The recovery process is so, self-absorbing. We think others sense what's going on with us, most aren't. Your road to recovery will be sucessful and filled with gifts, b/c you are back under the AA umbrella. Powerful stuff. You will get back everything, plus more. Enjoy.