of HIGH SCHOOL FOR ME!
Come on, this is a lively post, unlike lately... Today was my LAST day of high school. I took my Calculus exam and pretty much bombed it, since I didnt get done. And I only needed a 60 to have an A in that class..which stinks because I dont think I finished enough to make a 60... With an A in there I would have a 4.0 college GPA! But, its okay, I am just GLAD to be done with it!
Graduation is Friday and I am SO very excited. I havent cried yet and I probably wont. At least not for a couple of months when it really hits me. I am looking forward to college and the experience and meeting new people and being independent. So, Friday evening I will walk across the stage and recieve my diploma for finishing high school.
This might be the emotional part: I never thought I would reach this point. 2 years ago I got really depressed and I felt my life was all down hill from there. So much happened to me and looking even a week ahead wasnt possible for me. Honestly, at many points in my life since all this has occurred, I never imagined me even making it to senior year. And I never thought I would live to see my graduation. And yes, I mean that exactly how it sounds. So many times when all I saw for myself was a life I wasnt happy with and a bottle of pills across the room. Graduation didnt come close to touching that. It didnt matter to me because I knew I would never make it anyways...
Thats a horrible way of thinking, but.... for a long time, thats how I felt. I figured I would end up dying before I would graduate high school, but the day after tomorrow I will graduate. I will have made it.... and guess what....
So, it means alot to me that a lot of you have supported me since I have come here and you guys have helped me through the worst times of my life...and some of the best ones! Pat on the back to all of you for getting me to this point. I really dont know what I would have done without you all. Give yourselves some credit and I thank you all VERY MUCH!
I will think about you guys Friday night when I walk across the stage and start a new chapter in my life. I cant think you all enough, really. Love you guys very much! =]