Oh Sassy, I can soooooo relate. I have been dealing with Fibro, for almost twenty years. At first, I managed ok. Then as years went by, it wore me down to a fragile shell resembling only slightly, what I once was. I feel people tend to shy away from me because, I do get irritable and cranky when I am in pain, all the bills come due, I cannot just go out and work to bring in the money to keep up, because the Fibro is there, everyday, when I wake up. Some days are a little better than others and I try to get more done on those days, but lately I have been struggling so hard, working so hard, to find ways to survive. It gets really lonely in here. I live alone now, my son was living with me until my savings were depleted and he hit the road when I could no longer pay his bills, and mine. I tried so hard to get him into a Trade School, spent lavishly on his fees, his outstanding fines, got him a car, insured it, and now, when I'm out of funds, I am sitting here alone. Granted, I am not the best company when under a great deal of stress, and in pain, who would be? Therefore, I tend to push people away, I guess. the "one day at a time" approach, is best. Every night I go to sleep hoping for a better tomorrow. Lately, every day I awaken, it's still there, "shoot," that same old pain and stiffness. I am sorry not to have anything more inspirational for you, today. Maybe tomorrow. All I can say, is what I say to myself, hourly, "hang in there". I guess, I too must be in a "flare" as these past four or five days I have been in more pain than I can remember. So, maybe, "this too, will pass", soon I hope. How does one stop beating themselves up about not functioning well? Especially when doubted by unbelievers.