meeting today. so exhausted, foggy, second guessing myself

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   Posted 6/29/2009 7:25 PM (GMT -7)   
I met with the professor at Davis with whom I want to work to earn my PhD.  I had a fog moment during the meeting and all I could think was, "no, not now!"  I asked her what work she was doing in her lab and she told me.  It was all interesting and intriguing.  Then ten mins later she asked me what work i was interested in doing and I could not remember any of the projects she had just explained!!
I am exhausted and foggy.  All I did today was drive 2 hours and meet her an hour (and prepare).  Granted, it is 88 degrees in my house and she told me I would need to be published before December for my new app to be taken seriously. 
I am wondering if this is even the smart thing to do.  I am so tired and cannot think.  How will I volunteer for a lab and make a good impression if I am like this.  This is so frustrating.

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   Posted 6/29/2009 11:32 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey Sue......... I'm hoping that you get some rest tonight and that things will look better tomorrow...... Sounds like you are too worn out to really weigh your decision right now. Driving for a while before the interview would be hard on me -- but don't have a good alternative for that one. The heat and the stress don't help! BTW December is still a long way off, so you have some time to get published.....
Sounds like this is something that is really important to you, so please don't just dismiss it, okay? Maybe being really upfront with the professor should be a consideration.......???
Sending good thoughts your way, Sue.....
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   Posted 6/30/2009 4:01 AM (GMT -7)   
Never give up. Next meeting tell her it was the 88 degrees inside your house that had wiped you out. You couldn't sleep the night before. Then tell her you're investing in an air conditioner, so it won't be a problem in the future. It's all human. We've all been there and so has she.
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   Posted 6/30/2009 5:15 AM (GMT -7)   
Sue I'm sure you did better than you think you did. We seem to be harder on ourselves than anyone else. Hey, your going for your PhD with fibro, you should be very proud of yourself. smilewinkgrin I would be doing good to get out of first grade these days, providing I had the energy to go.
Wow, 88 degrees, I would have been sick before I left the house.
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   Posted 6/30/2009 8:47 AM (GMT -7)   

Sue, stress and heat can do that.  Have confidence in yourself and go buy a really good fan and get busy!  I know you can do it!


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   Posted 6/30/2009 9:07 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Sue -
The brain fog thing is sooo frustrating.  It's difficult to deal with too because it's unpredictable.  Dealing with the brain fog days became a huge burden the last year I worked.
Getting really tired and stressed out make it worse - but which of us wouldn't relax more if we could?
The one thing I've found that can help with this is Provigil and it's new version, Nuvigil.  It gives you more energy and keeps you more alert.  It's fast acting so you wouldn't need to take it every day - just when you needed it.
It is expensive and insurance companies don't like it unless you have nacrolepsy or sleep apnea.  But maybe you can get some samples from your Dr. to give it a try.  If you can tolerate it, it might be ideal for you situation.
Provigil is the stuff the military uses for pilots when they have to fly night missions or those super long ones.  I wish I could tolerate it better.  Even a small dose seems like too much unless I'm going to be physically active for the day.  It gives me more energy but kinda too much, so I'm always like "whew, I'm glad that finally wore off ......"
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   Posted 6/30/2009 10:12 AM (GMT -7)   
Have you tried taking D-Ribose? it has helped me.
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   Posted 6/30/2009 11:02 AM (GMT -7)   
Sue...sounds like a combo between the heat and the long drive didn't help any.

Remember this is a passion of yours, you will be great and have a the best experience when you volunteer.

You are one smart lady! :-)

I agree you need to go buy a fan....maybe two! ;-b

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   Posted 6/30/2009 11:16 AM (GMT -7)   
I think you're doing great and it's very brave to take on what you really want to do.
I agree, i probably did better than you think. You had a long drive and it was very hot.
Co enzyme Q10 is great for concentration and guarana for short term memory.
Any time i have something like you had i also give muself extra time on arrival to have a break/coffee/tea before having to concentrate for long periods of time.
Good luck and i wish you lots of cyber support.
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   Posted 6/30/2009 1:15 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks everyone. You are all so nice and supportive.

We had been keeping our ac off because the bill gets up in the high $300s. I open windows and turn on fans and that keeps it cool. But yesterday was a heat wave and the temp was 110 outside. I should have just turned the air on. I think it was stressful, too, because once I got inside the building, I hid my cane in my purse. This is because I didn't want them to make a snap judgement about me based upon it. Once I got to her office, there was no where for me to sit and wait and I stood there a good 10 minutes waiting before telling the secretary I would wait down the hall where there was a chair.

Oh and I forgot to take my meds yesterday and changed purses before I went and forgot to put the meds in my new purse. I am very tired today and trying to clean up the house and get ready for my sister and nephew to arrive. Not getting a lot done. Going to take a short nap.

I know you are right that I can do this. Yesterday, the professor said that she was reluctant to take on volunteers or go to bat for someone because others have flaked or burned her. I want to make sure I am dependable enough. She also said I need to publish and that is a really big job. Scientific journals are picky and it is difficult to get a manuscript into press. But she did say my GRE scores were good and that was a relief. I was afraid I would have to take it again.

I think a little rest and the new perspective you gave me will help a lot. You all rock. Thanks!

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   Posted 6/30/2009 11:47 PM (GMT -7)   
Do you have to be published in a scientific journal? I thought that people self published and offered their books via pdf download or even on Amazon. Have the rules changed?

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