I have an absolutely wonderful boyfriend. A month ago I moved in with him. He's always been understanding and supportive of my fibro. But, the day after I moved in, his back started hurting him really, really badly. Since then it's only gotten worse. He can't sit, move around or anything. He just lays on the floor all the time. He can't go anywhere, can't ride in the car, can't help with the housework. He finally found out that he has a bulging disk pressing against his sciatic nerve. He's been given every pain medicine imaginable, and has had a cortisone shot in his back, which was supposed to help tremendously. It's been a whole month and he's still had NO relief. It's killing me to watch him struggle. I can't even talk to him anymore, because he always snaps at me. Then I'll start crying and he'll apologize. The last time it was really bad, he told me that if I can't handle this I might as well leave him, because he doesn't know what's going to happen, and even if he does get better from this, he has MS and it will more than likely progress eventually. I sobbed and sobbed. I love him and there is no way I want to leave him under any circumstances. But this is so frustrating. I can't even be physically close to him, can't even give him a hug. I can't have a real conversation with him, because he can't focus. I can't do anything with him, except watch tv, and he's so sick of watching tv because it's been the only thing he can do for the last month. I've been doing all the housework and cooking because he can't, in addition to working all the time, because he can't got to work. I just miss the way things were. I don't know how to deal with this. It's breaking my heart watching day after day go by with him never feeling better and getting more and more frustrated and caring about himself less and less. I desperately want to be able to help him but there's nothing I can do. I cry for hours every day because I constantly feel like my heart is breaking. Has anyone ever dealt with this? What can I do to make it easier?
Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety
Amytriptiline, Flexeril (PRN), Percocet (PRN), Ambien (PRN at bedtime), B12
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