I went to a counsellor as i have been finding it increasingly hard to live with the pain i'm in and feeling like a failure as i can't do the things i used to and feel like i was letting my husband down as i'm still not pregnant.
Anyway, i had secong session today and she said she had researched fibro and really doesn't think i have it as you'd have to have a high threshold to pain to do the sports i do. I knidly reminded her that i'm unable to do these sports anymore and while i caompletely a 7km bike race last week (just to complete it, i came last) is probably contradicting the level of pain i say i'm in.
I just have to keep going tho, sometimes i'm crying as i cycle along and i'm sure there are some scared kids somewhere that can vouch for seeing a weirdo on a bike crying and wobbling along on a bike.
It took me six years to accept the diagnosis, am i just fooling myself with trying to get help. I don't know if anyone saw my last post, the doctor said it's not like i have cancer so won't give me anything stronger than paracetomol and ibuprofen types. He'll happily dish out benzodiazepam tho,,,,,,lord knows why....i'm a recovered drug/alcohol abuser,,,,,,and therefore relunctant to take them.
We can't afford any fertility treatment and i'm slowly accepting kids may just not be in my future. It's upsetting, but, if i'm really honest, i'm more upset that the choice has been taken from me, rather than it being something that i just didn't want, iykwim.
I'm just rambling here and have already tried to locate an evening course for the winter to occupy my evenings. I'm focused on getting fit in mind and body.
Has anyone just walked away from the medics and found that doing thier own thing worked better.
Boo, determined to be happy from now on.