hi ladies and gents,
Once again i have been told my anxiety and depression are the root of all my problems.
Although i have yet to find evidence to suggest anxiety and depression can erode your spine. I was having counselling and she said it's just pent up anger from a violent childhood that has me the way i am.......
I just don't know where to turn, i'm trying so hard to help myself but when i go out and get some help it blows up in my face.
I know there are many professionals out there, but i seem to be only able to tap into the ones that don't believe in it.
After 2 years of trying to concieve, we've thrown our hat at that as well as i was put on hormone treatment without any monitoring and just ended up with ovarian cysts. Now, after consulting with a homeopath, (who says the cysts are my minds way of making sure i don't concieve) she says i',m in denial and it sounds like i don't even want children.
I'm so confused and dissillusioned, and questioning myself all the time, am i actually stuck in such a vicius circle of thoughts thst i am actually in fact making myself sick and i can't see it.
I feel like i'm losing touch with reality, maybe it's all in my head and i'm really nuts....i feel like i;m losing it....i'm whacked out on pain meds and trying to work as much as i can.
It just feels like a losing battle at the moment.
My fog is terrible and i have acid reflux back that had subsided for over 2 years.
Do i just forget about any help and curl up in a ball away from society, am i actually bringing this on myself.
Has anyone a stop button for this ride.....i've had enough and would like to get off now, seriously, meltdown is imminent.
BikeBoo, biking with my boo since 1999
Of all the things i've lost, i miss my mind the most! But it has its advantages!
Fibro, spinal arthritis and all that goes with it.