Does this sound like anyone else's life??? Up in the morning and there's isn't much planned so I can finally get a few things done. Tidy up the house a bit, get the dishwasher running and pop in a load of clothes. That's maybe an hour or so. I have it all planned out...even had a weekly work sheet printed up. Make a cup of coffee...the phone rings. Need to help one of the kids or grandkids with information, arrange a ride for someone or just listen to daughter complain for as long as I can stand it...then make up some excuse to get off the phone. OK, there went my hour or so. Oops, forgot to make the bed, forgot some of my morning medications, need to get a letter out to the mail box. Another hour is gone. Pain level is rising rapidly so have to sit for a bit and fall asleep in my chair for a half hour. Jeez...it's noon already and nothing done! grrrr
Best have some lunch and I swear I'm going to leave any other clutter so I can get some of the quilting done. Those babies will be in kindergarten before they get their baby blankets...lol There goes the phone again! Littlest grandson wants to come and stay at grandma's house. I can barely take care of myself yet I usually say yes. (I know, I'm such a sucker but I love to see him) Best get something from the freezer for supper. Get online and check in with the forums and keep up on email. Need to write to a few people. Rats! 2:30 and I forgot to take out the meat to thaw for supper. Oldest grandson needs to get off to college classes, pack some food and get him out the door.
OK, peace...finally! 4:00 so I have 2 hours before hubby gets home, the best time of the day. So, time for me!! and my sewing machine. Just sit down and in walks my daughter and granddaughter. She lives next door and I guess she wasn't done complaining about
the world on the phone so she hikes up to keep on her 'rant of the day.' So much for sewing. At least I hope I get some dinner ready on time.
OK, it's 7 pm, everyone is fed. I'm not sure how I'm the one who gets all of the meal chores. Anyone have an idea what it's like for someone ELSE to cook, serve you and then clean up?? All you have to do is sit down, eat and hit your easy chair.
Now I actually turn on the light on my sewing machine. Wasn't it about
10-12 hours ago I tried this? Hubby is either in front of a hockey game or in his office with his 4 computers so I barely see him. By 9 he's in bed and I'm posting and doing the last of my chores online. I have my computer in our bedroom right now so I do get to see the back of his head as he's snoozing away. OK, I can sew for a while but if I stay up too late it knocks me down the next day. I best get to bed. Wait from grandson to get home from night classes, wipe down the kitchen, check the doors, stoke the woodstove, turn off all the lights, check on cat. (I thought putting the house to bed was the man's job??? I'm doing something wrong here. My dad always did that one.)
Get ready for bed and finally get there about
11 so I'm gonna get some reading time in, at least! Can't keep my eyes
open because of the darn med's. Darn!!! Forgot my night dose of insulin. Back out of bed....you see what's happening here??? Every day I swear I will break past this problem. I went to far as to spend my entire spring and most of summer deep cleaning the house partly to avoid some of this extra work but it's no help. If I clear a spot on the counter or eating bar it's like a neon sign for others to immediately cover it up with their jumk that needs to be put away and not just dropped in the kitchen!
All I'm doing is complaining and I do appologize but I have been trying for ages to get out of this mess and I just can't succeed. When I was able to work it wasn't this bad. I ask the guys for help and I get a resounding 'sure' but when they are needed they're no where to be found. The excuse...well, what do you want me to do? GEEZZZZZ, we went over it all only yesterday!
How do I get some time for me? Time to rest? I'm on my feet going non-stop all day and have nothing to show for it. I love cooking for and taking care of hubby...and spoiling him. I can hear all of the things I 'should do' but just can't seem to do them or get them to work. I have considered going on strike but that's not really the problem. I think the problem is mostly ME! I allow it and somehow I have to change that. So many of us are perfectionists and I can't sit still unless everything is picked up and in it's proper place and that's not going to happen right now. We have an addition project that is way over due to be completed. In the mean time I have piles of stuff everywhere! My pain level is out of sight!
Is there any hope for me???
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