please what pain meds help you?

I just recently went off lyrica weaned from 150 am 225 pm down to" off "over a period of a month. i went off because i was having speech problems sounded drunk most of the time, trouble with finding words, blurred vision { not severe, but knida like when you get a little mucous in your eye and you keep blinking to get rid of it" and i only noticed it when i was driving! think it was because i concentrate so when driving and i only noticed it in the daytime when there was plenty of 'sky' in my view. any how noticed more stumbling and dropping things too. i was on this drug for 1 1/2 yrs. noticed these same symptoms when my doseage was increased to 225 am & 225 pm. went back to dr. and dose lowered to 150 am 225 pm. symptoms went away .then about 5 months later symptoms returned and have had them since. i have them now, tho not quite as severe {about 30% better} my pain has increased since off the lyrica and ive become terrible depressed....cry very easily...feel hopeless. i should say that i have also been on cymbalta 120 mg. in am and adderall 20 mg x 2 a day for the cfs and lack of motivation. it helps some with the motivation...have since been able to and want to get to some of the many household decluttering that has oiled up since being diagnosed. the phyciatrist added abilify recently {1 1/2 weeks on it now} think its helped some. now the "pain".........{sorry but thought you needed some background.}my internist has had me on percocet 5mg...... up to "4" tablets a day. he has had me on this doseage for over 2 yrs......put me on it before my diagnosis of fibro.....mostly because i tried other things,,,,,,,,ibuprophen ultram tramadol ? etc. nothing helped......i told him about borrowing a percocet from a friend { know this is a no no in the med field, but was being honest with him } and how it helped. also at this appt.  i was upset and crying w/ the pain and frustration and told him i just didnt want to live another 5 years like that. i had broken down at other appts.....ithink he realized how serious it was  {finally}  anyhow my problem now is that  of course my body has built up a tolerance for this doseage and its just not helping as much... in fact..verry little. when i approached him about this ...my last 4 visits... i just get a polite " iknow... mrs.-------- but i dont want to have to keep increasing your doseage as your body becomes tolerant to the higher doseages.i told him i really didnt give a ---- if it would give me a few more years of relief. he is just not going to do it and i am just beside myself as to what to do. i need to take them now 8:37 am but then i know ill need them again in 4-5 hrs...... then im stuck for the evening and night w/o pain meds. have tried ibuprophen in afternoons...about as effective as p***ing in the ocean. what can i do???? what helps yall? i have heating pads up the wazoo tried hot baths, stretching etc...i need relief.....im 61 yrs old, female, and i just cant live with this. and have also thought about buying off the internet..{scared to do that too} have seen chiropractors, called pain management centers{ wasnt impress with responses they gave me} sorry this is so long but im just tired of not having a life and crying at times with the pain. please someone give me some advice...im really feeling desparate........