I think im losing my mind

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   Posted 1/21/2010 12:05 PM (GMT -7)   
  Hello All,
       I am new to the board. I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia 2 months ago, I also have degenerative disc disease, spinal stenosis, lupus, arthuritis. I have been in alot of pain for about 5 years but just got diagnosed. The reason i feel like im losing my mind is because I'm crying all the time, panic attacks, not wanting to do anything, my fatigue and anxiety have gone through the roof which makes my pain worst. I have been learning to deal with the pain but all the rest is worrying me. I'm thinking i need theropy or something. My husband was activated with the military and sent overseas about 3 wks. ago but i have been through that before and it did not affect me this bad.
    I dont know if this has anything to do with it but as a child i was severely abused by my mother and at the age of 18 i was raped by a stranger that broke into my home. I never got help for it but i seemed to deal with it (I think). I am 47 years old and never had these problems before and not sure how to handle it. I would appreciate any advise
If i don't reply back, it's because im trying to figure out how.

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   Posted 1/21/2010 1:20 PM (GMT -7)   
I understand.
My theory is that a body can handle emotional stress or physical pain, but not both.
I was always very emotional, especially when going through a flair.

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   Posted 1/21/2010 1:21 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi TressiaN,
Welcome to the fibromyalgia forum.  I am glad to see you here.
You sure have a lot on your plate right now and it sounds like you are suffering with a little depression too.  Which goes hand and hand with the fibromyalgia. 
Are you seeing a good pain specialist for this?  Are you on any pain meds?  I take norco and soma for the pain and adderall for the fatigue, I am also on antidepressants and a mood stabilizer.  So I am full of medications, but it helps me function so I don't mind it. 
I am sorry for what happened when you were younger, you said that you really hadn't dealt with it.  Are you going to any counseling now?  That might be a good thing to consider. 
I am sorry that your husband is overseas.  That must be difficult for you.  But you said that you were use to it so maybe that isn't such a factor here, but it seems like it would effect you to a point. 
If you get a chance, try looking over fibro101, it is the second thread on the forum.  There you will read a lot of information and see that we all are dealing with the same thing and the different ways we cope.  It is an interesting thread. 
A lot of us take medications, some of us use natural supplements, we are all different in that way, but all the same when it comes to symptoms and supporting eachother.  I know that you will find support here.
Please keep posting, click where it says reply.  It will be at the end of the thread.  You can also do quick reply, that works well too.
Best wishes for you to have a wonderful day.
Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 1/21/2010 1:46 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank you for your advise, I think i do need to deal with alot of issues. I have a great doctor and taking lortab's and 800 Ibuprofen. I have tried several medications and these seem to work the best for my pain. Now if i can get the rest under control things might get better. Sometimes it's just good to know that someone else cares, and to be able to tell someone. I have been reading post's on this sight for about a week and I think is wonderful
I have a question? can my past be what triggered my FM, I have not had any accedents which i have read can trigger it.   
 Diagnosed with FM, Degenerative disc disease, spinal stenosis, arthritis, Lupus.

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   Posted 1/21/2010 1:50 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Tressia, I am so sorry you are going through so much physical and emotional pain.

First off I recommend that you find a therapist to work through your rape and abuse issues.
You have been carrying around alot of stressful baggage for a long time. Stress adds to pain.
Your husband being shiped over seas must add to your stress also.

If you haven't already , check out fibro 101 on the top of page one. There is wonderful
info for the fibromites.

Along with fibro I have multiple health issues, some the same as yours. My lupus is part of
MCTD (lupus, scleroderma and RA). The most important thing you can do is take one day at
a time. Do what you can do to relieve stress. STRESS is horrible! Find an exercise you can do.
I find walking helps relieve stress and gets the body moving. Inactivity is bad for you.
Soak in a hot tub, or use a heating pad or bed buddy. Heat always feels good!

What medication are you taking? For fibro I take Savella 50mgs 2x daily and Flexeril
(clclobanzaprine) a muscle relaxer for flares. For my MCTD I take Metotrexate, alow dose
chemotherapy drug 1x weekly, it is an immunosupressant. I also just started taking
B12 5000 mcgs a day. It is good for nerve health and fatigue.

Hope you find some relief soon Tressia. Sending gentle hugs

Hugs, Robin
MCTD, Fibromyalgia, Raynauds, Osteoarthritis, Osteoporosis, Degenerative 
 Disc Disease, Hypertension, Migraines and Pseudothrombocytopenia MEDS: Methotrexate, Savella,Flexeril,Diltiazem, Boniva, Vitamins 

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   Posted 1/21/2010 4:05 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi, and welcome!  I use ibuprofen, too.  Be sure to take it with food to protect your stomach.  That's what I do and I've done well with this for many, many years!
I think the thought of being without your husband AND having fibro could be triggering the crying.  You are sad...sad about his being gone and sad that you aren't the person you used to be.  This is all understandable. 
Try to not project yourself in the future.  Just take one day at a time.  After all, none of us know what the future holds.  Also, look at all the good things in your life instead of looking at the negative things.  We do tend to forget all the good we have and think about what hurts, what isn't going well in our lives.  I think that is just human nature to do that.  But really try to be thankful for all the good in your life and that should help with your depression, crying, and pain.
You have been given great advice, too.  Don't hesitate to ask questions or just get things off your chest.  You are not alone, now.  You have your new "fibro family"!  We will be here for you.  I hope you have a better evening and a good night's sleep.
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   Posted 1/21/2010 6:48 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi TressiaN, and welcome. I'm sorry you are going through so much right now; that's quite a lot to deal with at one time.

I agree that you might want to look into some counseling. I've done it several times throughout my life. Are you able to get any through the military? Panic attacks are such a pain in the rear to deal with. It may help to have a professional to talk to. It did me. :)

As far as your past triggering your FM, I don't think anyone really knows for sure what triggers it. Even if it was triggered by something else, dealing with depression, anxiety, panic attacks, PTSD, etc. can certainly cause it to flare.

Hang in there.

Hugs - Austen
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   Posted 1/21/2010 8:22 PM (GMT -7)   
As far as getting help through the military, we do have 2 insurances now and it should pay for everything. It would probably be smart to take advantage of it and ask for help.
    You guys are awsome,  Wish i had found this sight sooner and i may not have gotten to this point. talking to you has made me feel not so guilty about asking for help, and slowing down.
I will keep you up to date on my progress
      Thank you so much
 Diagnosed with FM, Degenerative disc disease, spinal stenosis, arthritis, Lupus.
Medications- Plaquanil, 800 Ibuprofen, Lortab 

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   Posted 1/23/2010 5:28 PM (GMT -7)   
Just popping in to welcome you to the fibro family and as you can see you are not alone..HW and the ppl here have gotten me thru so mucj over the tears honestly would hv been a lost soul if not for these ppl stay with us and i wish you all the best.......lyn
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   Posted 1/24/2010 11:02 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Tressia and welcome to the family. I too suffer from a lot of anxiety and it wasn't for xanax I don't know where I would be. For me it is inherited. I stopped having panic attacks when I found out what really happens during one. You have a scary thought or feeling which causes your body to dump too much adrenaline in your system which causes a physical reaction (for me it was usually my throat tightening up) which scares you more so more adrenaline is dumped and before you know it your in a full blown panic attack. I started telling myself over and over when it would start that it was only a physical feeling and before I knew it I stopped having them. If I could only find something that simple to stop the generalized anxiety I would be happy.
All I know is fibro started for me after a long stressful time in my life. So for me I do believe 100% that stress had something to do with it.
IMO you need to deal with the past. I don't think we can move forward with unresolved issues in our past that we haven't come to terms with. I have this little self-analysis thing I do when I'm having a lot of anxiety if it isn't apparent why I'm having it. I go over in my mind every aspect of my life, marriage, children, grandchildren, finances even my house which I stress over cause I can't keep it as clean as I would like and usually when I get to the subject that is causing the anxiety I will start to feel it so I know I need to change things in that area. There are things in the back of our minds that we aren't even thinking about that can cause us stress and anxiety. You say your okay with your DH leaving this time but we are a military family and any time someone is deployed, even during peace time, it is hard cause you miss them if for no other reason.
Hope all is better for you soon.
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