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   Posted 1/27/2010 3:30 AM (GMT -7)   
i'm exhausted, and have only been awake for a little while.
i have to take the boys to the orthodontist ... one is 'regular' ... the other is 'extreme' ... they give him codeine ... his procedure is so nasty .... the oral surgeon even offered to numb him every time for FREE because what they do to him is so rough.  it makes me want to throw up ...  he is so brave .. but it hurts so much. 
their dad was supposed to take them today for the first time ... but he called to say that he has to go out of town.  so i had to call my boss and tell her i'd be late today.  he's never taken them ...  reason #29834 why we're  not still married ....
work is awful.  i mean AWFUL.  i broke into tears as soon as i got into my car yesterday.  and to top it all off, ANOTHER kid threw up yesterday ... AFTER I held him all day because he was fussy.  so, out of 24 on my roster, all but 3 have gotten in now .. including my assistant.  my belly hurts.
i haven't really spoken to my husband in days ... i never see him, and when i do, we can't think of anything to say other than stuff like "the car needs to be inspected" or "we're out of cat food". 
someone where I work accidentally gave my daughter dairy ... she has allergies ... has been a mess since night before last.  actually got in trouble yesterday at school .. for the FIRST TIME ... luckily, i had sent her teacher an email so she knew that Clara wasn't feeling well. 
i swear, i'm taking the prozac ... but right now I am so depressed i can hardly get off the couch.  you know, it doesn't matter how much medicine i take for depression, life is still tough ... and i think it's normal for my body to react this way.  it's like my BODY is saying "Hide in bed!!! Hide in bed!!!  Don't go out ... it's scarey out there!!!!" 
so .. i'm not really whining .. I'm just thinking that 1)  life could be WORSE.  a lot worse.  2)  I DO have lots to be thankful for.  3)  I need to not freak out that i'm so depressed .. because it doesn't have to last forever, and maybe it's a normal response to the way things are going.  4)  i KNOW that i am doing the very best that I can, and that's all I can do.  5)  there are people who care about me ... even when I am in the pit .... and I need to keep them in mind because it will strengthen me. 

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   Posted 1/27/2010 8:32 AM (GMT -7)   
So sorry you are having a rough day. There is a lot on your plate and you just do it. Amazing! Do whatever you need to do to strengthen yourself. I hope you can get in a bubble bath or something... :)

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   Posted 1/27/2010 9:08 AM (GMT -7)   
do-over, sending gentle hugs. Somedays are certainly worse than others where everything
seems overwhelming. Know this day will pass and there will be better days ahead.

Hugs, Robin
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   Posted 1/27/2010 10:35 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Do-over,
It does sound like you had a rough day.  But you survived.  Which is wonderful.  Remember that stress makes our fibro flare so try to keep that down to a minimum.  I know, easier said than done.  But you will survive.  One day at a time.  That is the best advice that I can give.
Take some time for yourself, as mentioned above, a nice bubble bath is in order.  Maybe your bed buddy for comfort.  Keep trying, do the best that you can and let the chips fall as they may. 
I hope taht you are having a better day and that you are not in any pain.  KNow that we are all thinking of you and wish you the best.
Hugs, Karen
PS if the depression keeps up, come and visit the depression forum.  We would love to have you there!!!
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   Posted 1/27/2010 11:19 AM (GMT -7)   
Dear do-over, I think your name says it all. Every day is a chance for a do-over. :)

Sending you soft hugs - Austen
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   Posted 1/27/2010 1:56 PM (GMT -7)   
Keep telling yourself it's times like this that makes the good times seem even better. We have to convince ourselves of that or we would go nuts. smilewinkgrin  Counting our blessings always helps. Saying, this too shall pass. What other tricks do I use when I'm at the breaking point.
My DH has been so swamped this week that I think we have said, "good morning" and "good night" and that's about it.
Hope things get better real quick for you.
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   Posted 1/27/2010 5:01 PM (GMT -7)   
thanks pals. it's so nice to know i'm not alone .. cause that is pretty much how i have been feeling ... lonely .. even though i am surrounded by people. if that makes any sense.

the boys' appointment sent ok ... not as bad as in the past. for that i am very thankful!!

work was a little better today .... not great, but better. and for THAT, I am thankful.

my husband and i will never love each other, but we're not being MEAN to each other today , so ... yeah ... I guess I'll be thankful for THAT tonight too.

even though ANOTHER kid barfed at school today ... ON MY ARM ... I still haven't thrown up. so I am VERY VERY VERY thankful for that!!!!!!

kids are home. hubby is home. i am making a little supper. house is warm. there is food in the cupboard. i didn't have to fill out any injurty reports at work. no dogs peed on the floor while i was gone. (OR tore up the trash. ) and I have a JOB INTERVIEW tomorrow at 4:00 ... at my daughter's school ... assistant instead of lead teacher .. which means WAY less headache .. still hard work .. but the same school calendar as my children. and summers off. and it's only a 1/2 mile from my house. and i know everyone there. and i LOVE that school. and it's in the kindergarten class. and so for THAT, I am SUPER DUPER EXTRA SPECIAL thankful. :)

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   Posted 1/27/2010 5:14 PM (GMT -7)   
That is so cool. I hope that you get the job that you want.

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 1/27/2010 5:32 PM (GMT -7)   
Sometimes life is good... sometimes it sucks. We can't change it so we just have to keep on keepin' on. Looks like that is what you're doing. Hope you get the job. BTW, the tummy virus you are describing just zoomed thru our family. YUCK! Hope it is dead and gone soon.
~ Jeannie, Forum Moderator/Diabetes & Fibromyalgia
I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much. ~Mother Teresa

"People are like stained glass windows: They sparkle and shine when the sun's out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is light within."- Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

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