I saw my dr Monday and he prescribed Prednisone for TMJ and the rest of my flared arthritis, I took it once. I picked up my monitor, my desk, surround sound and tower by the monitor cord, before dropping it all on me. Needless to say, my desk top is dead, I look and feel as though I've been beaten with a bat. I called my dr Tues, he suggested that I take the Zanax he also prescribed at the same time I take the steroids, my husband stopped talking to me for two days. I called on Wed and told the dr I simply could not take the prednisone anymore, and that for future refrence, it might not be the best idea to prescribe steroids to a person with anger management problems and a just diagnosed anxiety disorder. I try to joke about
it now, having turned into a mini redheaded Hulk, but it hurts to know that the pain I'm in now, I caused myself, I lost years worth of pictures that have no hard copy. Less important, though still aggrivating, I lost my Sims 2 games and World of Warcraft, my stress releavers. At least we have a laptop so I'm not going completely crazy. But I know I'm going through something emotionally, drained and sick and tired of this situation, no money, no prospects of money, my house is a mess and falling apart.
The best part of the last week, today was my son's 5th birthday, I did my best to keep everything inside and make sure he had a good day and I think I did, he wore himself out and was passed out in my bed by 8:30pm
I just want to find a deep dark hole, scream myself hoarse and beat my head against the wall until I'm unconscious and don't have to deal with any of this mess anymore.
Sry it's so long guys, I just needed to vent to someone who understands more of what I'm going through than anyone else.
Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you out.
FM, costocontritis, wide spread arthritis, fibroid tumors, PTSD, 2 heart attacks at 22, PID
Buspar 20mg, B-complex, Lortab 5, Jet-alert
, Ibuprofen 800mg