Weight has been a struggle of mine also, before this bout of illness, and since. In my early 20's I suffered a major depression, and went from a once athletic young woman to a very sedentary and over weight one. In high school, I too, suffered from Anorexia which was a result of a trauma. I hadn't been concerned at that time with my body image because I was very fit. Starving was something I could control, when I couldn't control anything else.
Since getting sick over the last year and a half, I now weigh 100 pounds less than I did 4 years ago. I lost 60 pounds the healthy way before this current illness had any hand in it. Anorexia resulted first from my loss of appetite, and has now become a way to deal with my frustration over the illness as well. Bottom line, I know it isn't healthy.
Being ill is difficult enough without having to look in the mirror. When my weight began to drop rapidly, I got caught up in the compliments I received, but also found that I was having difficulty recognizing all aspects of the person I saw myself becoming. Anorexia is not the answer.
I have now been making a very concious effort to keep only healthy food in my home at all times, and even when I really don't feel like it, I get out for a walk. Even if you do all the right things, and your weight issue persists, I promise that you will still find a sense of relief and self-satisfaction in knowing that you are doing the right things.
Take care of yourself.
31 year old female
Chronic pain, GI inflammation, Asthma, catracts, Depression, chest pain, frequent fevers, vomiting, weight loss, insomnia, the list goes on. 16 months into this, I still have no official diagnosis.
"Be the change you wish to see in the world" - Ghandi