Hi again friends,
I would love to have some advice from you on how to get my life back in order. I am feeling really down on myself, and don't know what to do.
I have been a housewife pretty much all my married life. I've cooked, cleaned, gardened, and sewed, wiped noses, etc. Well, over the past 4 or 5 years of my life, my fibromyalgia has worsened, and there have been a lot of changes in my life. The changes that have been really tough are my husband's job losses, shift changes, etc. We've gone from swing shift, to Monday thru Friday 6-2, midnight shift to afternoon shift now. His days off rotate, so I basically have to stop and think about what day of the week it is. I literally live for his days off so we can be together.
Since the time all this started, I have basically given up on cooking, and wait until evening to clean my house. My laundry piles up, and so does the dust.
The main thing though, is the cooking. I have 2 teenagers, and then my husband and I. I seriously maybe only cook 1 time a week! I feel so guilty. The kids go to other peoples houses, and they eat a good meal. They come home, and we go to Subway or McDonald's. My husband has an early afternoon shift, and mornings are my worst time. I don't feel like moving, let alone cooking a meal. So, we go eat somewhere. Then I pick up my kids from school at different times because of the things they are involved in, and I take them to eat somewhere.
How can I get back to where I was? I feel like a failure. I know this may sound like a petty thing to some people, but it is so important to me.
Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue, GERD, Irritable Bowel, Mitral Valve Prolapse, Depression
Rx: Lyrica 100mg 2x, Prilosec OTC, Paxil, Xanax
Even though the journey's long,
and I know the road is hard,
there's One who's gone before me,
He will help me carry on...