Yeah, I know....it is harder when you're expecting to feel "normal."
What you said about pulling yourself up by a rail surprised me - because I would be afraid to do that. (It would hurt my neck, shoulders, & trapezius muscles too much.) Everyone has their own worst problem areas, though.
Hope your flare is over.
Diagnosed: Fibromyalgia, Meniere's, elevated liver enzymes, skin grafting on back, arthritis, scoliosis, lumbar disc damage, sciatica, IBS, migraine headaches, skin cancer surgeries on face
Meds: Nortriptyline, Clonazepam, Darvocet as needed
Multivitamins, l-lysine, probiotics, magnesium, malic acid, calcium + vit. D, vit. C
Be yourself. Everyone else is already taken.