Aaaahhh, I went through what you have been going through...including the hypnosis to quit smoking. I, too, loved to smoke, especially that cigarette after meals, and only gave it up because I wanted to see my children grow up. I had chronic bronchitis and would get walking pneumonia several times a year.
One time, when I was just getting over a bout with walking pneumonia, I reached for a cigarette and a little voice in my head said that I would not see my children grow up if I continued smoking. I was a 2 1/2 pack a day smoker. I'd light one cigarette off the other! Anyway, my children were 4, 3, and 10 months old. So, I made a quality decision. I was GOING to quit this time.
I threw out all my cigarettes. I flushed old cigarette butts down the toilet, including those in the car ash trays, and cleaned all ash trays. Before, when trying to quit, I had gone out to the car and smoked any old butt that was in the ash tray....and they weren't all my cigarette butts! Yuck! But that is how addicted I was so this time I decided to eliminate that temptation.
I did wonderfully well....for the first two hours. Then the cravings started and I thought, "Here we go again!" But, I do have a very strong faith in God so I stopped dead in my tracks, bowed my head, and asked God to take away the craving...and He did! I had to do this many times over the next couple of weeks but then the cravings came less and less. Now, I can't stand to be around cigarettes. I don't know how I ever breathed that into my lungs! I quit on January 16, 1979 and haven't touched a cigarette since. Funny how you wil remember that day!
So, you can do this. You just have to make up your mind that this is it. You WILL quit. It's amazing what we can do when we put out mind to it. That even includes fibro pain! So, give it a try. Don't let the negative thoughts get in your mind, like, "I can't do this." You CAN do this. Just make that quality decision.
I'll keep you in my prayers and let us know how it is going for you. Quitting smoking is one of the best things you can do for yourself.
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