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Date Joined Jun 2009
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   Posted 6/10/2010 4:56 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey everyone,

I really just need to talk to you all, to talk to someone who understands. I'm just so very frustrated with life at the moment, and I feel like I am truly going insane.

So as you all may remember, I was recently diagnosed with hypothyroidism. (Last week). In a way, I felt kinda relieved because I had had so much fatigue and depression lately, and because this was something that was truly treatable, I had hopes of it going away/getting better. Much more hope then I do with fibro. Anyways, I've been on medication for it for 8 days now, and now my thyroid is swollen. It hurts to swallow, and it feels like someone is choking me. Dr says it can be a normal reaction and not to worry about it.

But here's my point...I'm still feeling like crap. My throat hurts, and it's hard to eat. I'm so exhausted that I sleep most of the time, and my pain (especially due to this recent rain) has been intense. My head hurts so bad that it feels like it is going to fall off, and I'm pretty sure I've officially gotten my fiance's cold. It's hard for me to stay out of bed for any length of time, my body just can't handle it. I'm 21 and I feel like I'm at least 80.

I told my fiancee today that I wanted to die. (And no, don't worry, I won't do anything stupid.) But seriously, I kinda wish I'd go to sleep and never wake up.

I'm not crazy, right?

"Anyone can give up, it’s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that’s true strength."


Dx: Fibromyalgia, CFS, Trigeminal Neuralgia, TMJ, Migraines, Anxiety, Insomnia, Acid Reflux, RLS, Asthma, Hypothyroidism.
Rx: Celebrex, Buspar, Savella, Lyrica, Neurontin, Requip, Nexium, Symbicort, Compazine, Lunesta, Synthoid.
Supplements: Vitamin B Complex, Vitamin D, Vitamin C, Iron, Malic Acid/Magnesium

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Date Joined Jul 2009
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   Posted 6/10/2010 5:22 PM (GMT -7)   
Sarah, you are not crazy...you're in pain, suffering a miserable flare with a sore throat
and exhausted on top of that. It is frustrating when you feel like crap and you see no end in
sight...but there is an end, sooner or later you do feel better, sometimes it just doesn't
come soon enough. I think we all have felt like that at sometime. Chronic pain is hard to
live with. Fibromites are incredibly strong people even though we don't feel like it at times.

I'm hoping that you will get a good nights rest. Maybe drinking some hot tea and soaking
in a tub will help relax you. Sending gentle hugs and hoping you feel better very soon!

I do understand...Hugs, Robin
Fibromyalgia, MCTD (Lupus, Scleroderma & RA) Raynaud's, Osteoporosis,
Osteoarthritis, Degenerative Disc Disease, Migraines, and Hypertension
Prescription Meds: Savella, Cyclobenzaprine, Methotrexate, Diltiazem, Boniva,
Folic Acid.  OTC Meds: Multi-vitamin. Vit, D, Vitamin B12 & calciim supplements

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Date Joined Dec 2009
Total Posts : 387
   Posted 6/10/2010 5:24 PM (GMT -7)   
It takes some time for the meds to take affect for the hypothyroidism. I have it as well and had it for about 13 yrs. When they need to adjust it, it takes two to three weeks. I can somewhat understand how you feel. There are days where I get up and get the kids off to school and can very easily go back to bed. If you can, try to distract yourself with things that you like to do such as reading. I find that if I stay in one place for too long, I get stiff and hurt. I know that people have told you this but try heat and hot showers. I wish that you feel better.
Take care of yourself,

getting by
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   Posted 6/10/2010 5:29 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Sarah,

It sounds like what you need right now is rest. And a lot of it. Whatever you do, don't feel guilty for not feeling like doing anything. That will only make you feel worse. Take a few days (if you can) and just relax.

Best wishes to you...

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

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Date Joined Nov 2008
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   Posted 6/10/2010 7:07 PM (GMT -7)   
This too shall pass .... it's hard to believe now, but it will .... at least the intensity will lessen. I am so sorry you have all these problems so young. I'm afraid my daughter (almose 21) may also have fibro on top of other problems, so I understand the unfairness of your situation :(
    Diagnosed: Fibromyalgia, possible Meniere's, elevated liver enzymes, skin grafting on back, arthritis, scoliosis, lumbar disc damage, sciatica, IBS, migraine headaches, tachycardia, skin cancer surgeries on face
    Meds: Nortriptyline, Clonazepam, Darvocet as needed
    Multivitamins, l-lysine, probiotics, magnesium, malic acid, calcium + vit. D, vit. C
    Chiropractic adjustments
Be yourself.  Everyone else is already taken.

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Date Joined May 2010
Total Posts : 1556
   Posted 6/11/2010 6:04 AM (GMT -7)   
I just wanted you to know that there are many nights when I go to bed that I have wished I wouldnt wake up. You are not crazy. The pain and fatigue that we suffer with daily sometimes seems like one of the longest roads a person could ever travel. Hopefully the thyroid medicine will kick in soon and you will feel much better. Sending you my prayers.

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Date Joined Mar 2010
Total Posts : 1286
   Posted 6/11/2010 6:56 AM (GMT -7)   
Nope, you are not crazy!!!  I feel like crap also, the fatigue is a killer and I am afraid to ask for adderal or something.  I don't take any narcotics for pain but sometimes I wish I did (hubby would have a bird tho). 
There are days that I would just love to spend on the couch but with our business that is not usually possible plus all the animals didn't ask to be here and they need care which I don't mind.
Been planting the garden and it is killing me, I rarely say anything to hubby tho as he doesn't get it.  This morning I commented that I felt like I got beat up in bed................his comment back was that we both need exercise............he is 40 lbs overweight and I am pretty fit............HE needs exercise.
You are not alone in this.  I never wished that I didn't wake up but I have wished for a few more hours of sleep as he does not believe in naps.
Denise from Pittsburgh, Pa
 ***diagnosis: high blood pressure, gastritis, fibromyalgia, hepatitis (SVR),  disc problems in neck, depression, anxiety & stress
 ***meds: metroplol 25mg, zoloft 150mg, gabapentin 300mg 3x a day zocor , (soma, fioronal, tramadol, as needed).
 ***other supps: calcium, vit D 2,000-4,000 per, milk thistle, vit C &E, acidopholos (sp?),  
CO-Q 10,  flax or fish oil, ginsing, magnesium, B complex,

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