Good news, and MORE good news!
The good news: Today is the first day of my new job. I haven't had a job since last January ... and probably the ONLY people that understand that I'm not really lazy are the folks in this forum. So, I'll be working 10 hours per week at the elementary school that all of my children have attended .. only .5 miles from my home .. and no more than 3 hours per day. I'm pretty excited about it .. but nervous too .. because I know how hard it is for people with fibro to be on someone else's clock .. particularly when it involves working with little children! :)
MORE good news: I am much more at peace about losing the pregnancy now. I've had time to process things, and I know it will resurface from time to time, but there is a sense of calm about it now. I was invited to attend a service tonight for people who have miscarried or suffered from early infant loss ... everyone brings an ornament to hang on a great big tree, and they light luminaries in the garden. I think it will bring a sense of closure and community ... like I'm not alone, and that a little life was recognized in a special way. I'm sure it will be emotional, but I'm really looking forward to being there tonight.
The BEST NEWS: For my birthday, my husband and I picked out a PUPPY. She is 3/4 St Bernard, 1/4 Lab, and absolutely WONDERFUL!!!! Somewhere between grieving over the miscarriage and celebrating my birthday, I couldn't get my mind off of this little girl in my daughter's class who kept telling me about her grandfather's accidental litter of puppies. We had a WONDERFUL st/lab mix who died last year .. and I still miss him terribly. So we got the old crate out, gathered up some puppy toys, and went to look at the litter. I picked the only girl, she looks just like a St., but she has BLACK spots instead of brown. Her ears have curly hair, and her feet are HUGE! Oh, and that belly of hers ... so fat and round and adorable!! She's so darn cute I just can't stop looking at her. I wish I could figure out how to post a pic on here!
To most people, an 8 week old enormous puppy sounds like a lot of work ... especially since we already have 3 dogs and 3 kids and winter is a tough time of year for me ... but you know what? sometimes, the best things in life just don't really make all that much sense. I LOVE this little ball of fluff ... she has brought me so much happiness already!! She is the best puppy ever ... only 2 accidents in the house since we brought her home, she is a TOTAL snuggle bug, she comes when I call her already, she settles down and sleeps in her crate at night (and only grunts a little to tell me she needs to go out), and she is so flippin' CUTE!!!!!
so, things are looking up again. WAY up ... and I'm so thankful!!! :)