Posted 3/14/2011 1:24 PM (GMT -7)
Pam, you mentioned God's plan. I do believe he knows best. My dear husband had heart trouble and suffered with congestive heart failure. He had triple by-pass four years ago. It was getting to the place where he was taking mega doses of water pills and still smothering and couldn't get the fluid off his heart. We talked a lot about his future because of his bad health and he was worried that he may have to go on dyalisis. He couldn't stand the thought of that so I do believe God took him home to heaven before he had to endure that part of his life.
If I didn't have God in my life I don't know what I would do. I wouldn't call my dh back and think about his suffering. He is in a far better place than I and doesn't have to worry about any of this anymore.
He has a sister 58 years old that has the mind of a five year old because she had the same thing happen to her when she was 39. He used to worry because he didn't want to end up like her.
God saw fit to take him out of this world before he had to suffer like she has. I thank God every day for his not suffering but it doesn't make me miss him any less. I miss him so much that I'm really down and out and I am trying to get up enough nerve to stay all night here at my home this weekend.
He died in our bed and it was so quickly that it was unbelievable. This is what makes it so hard on me right now.
Please keep me in your prayers and thanks for telling your pastor about me. The more people praying for me the better.
I'm still begging you all in my fibro family that believe in prayer, to keep remembering me that I will get stronger.
Of all the things that I have lost, I miss my mind the most!!!!