I don't know what to say other than I do believe in prayer and I will pray for you.
And that when I hear of something so tragic as this, I try and at least learn from it so that your expeience won't go completely without positive result. Oh man, that wording sounds all wrong. I don't quite know how to word this. What I am trying to say is that knowing your experience will make me take time for my family, stop and smell the roses more, and quit sweating the small stuff. And just try my very best not to take things for granted.
And not that I have lost anyone close to me lately, but I was dealing with some turmoil (sp?) in my heart and it made me finally take that leap and get back to God and church. After I did that, I felt like I filled in a big gap that had in my life. And where as I child I hated going to church, now I find myself craving Sunday so that I can have my time and talk to God in his house. Lord knows I talk to him all the time from mine but there's something that I feel, a deeper sense of connection when I am at church. And I don't know if you belong to church, but I can tell you this one I am going to now would tell me that it's OK to grieve. It's OK to be angry. It's Ok to not understand. And they would love me, wrap their arms around me, pray for me, be quiet if I need them, or talk if I need to talk. They would be there and pull me through anyway I needed. If I could I would try and be there for you. All I can do from here is pray and add you to our prayer list and let the man do his work.
Try and be strong, one breath at a time, one moment at a time, one day at a time.