Yesterday my husband and I had to put down our precious little Kailey Girl. We got our cat about 2.5 years ago when she was just a few months old. We adopted her from a woman that rescued kittens from kill shelters. We learned a few weeks after adopting her at her first vet appointment that she had FeLV, Feline Leukemia Virus. We didn't fully comprehend what that meant; we just knew our time with her would be limited as her life expectancy was 1-3 years.
Deciding to get a cat was a very whirlwind decision. My husband and I, then not even engaged, had recently moved in together. Soon after we moved in together his mother lost her long battle with Ovarian Cancer. Once she passed and our traveling back and forth calmed down I felt an instant need for a furry companion. I knew of their therapeutic qualities for "normal" people so I figured it would be great for someone with Fibro. I grew up with a dog and my husband has always loved animals. My husband had gotten hamsters a few months before thinking they would do the trick, but they were gross and only made me anxious. They really don’t cuddle so well. So we got our little Kailey girl. We chose her because her name was originally Bailey, the name of our nephew and in her picture she made the cutest little growling tiger face. When we met her we knew she was the one. She loved being carried around like a baby and she loved having her belly rubbed. It was like having a little puppy dog. My husband actually started calling her puppy dog because she loved playing fetch!
When we found out Kailey had FeLV we made the decision to keep her and love her for as long as we would have her for and that's exactly what we did. She had an upper respiratory infection she just couldn't fight. We never wanted her to suffer and we know we did the right thing. She was our baby girl and will always have a special place in our hearts. She was my comfort and companion during many flares and I will miss her greeting me when I get out of the shower, waiting for us at the door when we came home and even though it was painful, her jumping on my ribs in the middle of the night.
We are so thankful she did not suffer too much as we never wanted that for her. I never expected my heart to hurt this badly or the void to be so apparent. I know time will heal the pain but we will always remember and love her. This loss is especially hard on my husband because it brings up so many of the difficult emotions of his mother’s death. We know we will get through this together and we believe that everything happens for a reason.
Thank you my friends for being here for me. I know that even though I won’t have her to help me get through my flares in the future I will have the support, warmth and companionship of all of you.
"Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly" - Proverb
Post Edited (Frankey) : 3/14/2011 10:17:40 AM (GMT-6)