Last night was the first time that I just said no to an activity that I was supposed to do with my Daughter. She is a very involved almost 11 year old - Acting, Girl Scouts (I am leader), Volleyball, and 4H. She had been in a play this weekend. 3 performances, Volleyball tournament and practice. Last night & Today - I am wiped. I am so tired - I can barely keep my eyes
open. I asked her if we could skip the 4H meeting last night. I checked and knew that they were not doing anything and she has never missed. I was just exhausted. Even when saying the words, the guilt began to creep up. I promised to email the Leader to verify we missed nothing. She was fine with it - and went bike riding with her dad (of which - made me feel worse - I WANT TO BE RIDING BIKE WITH HER). I know that I need to say no - sometimes - for myself. But now - I feel guilty that I let this darn Fibro get the best of me. I (like you) fight daily to get up out of bed, work a full day, and continue to keep life going at home. As guilty as I feel - I wish I could have an entire day to just do nothing - and not have to do double duty the next day.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Lexapro, Nortryptiline, Melatonin, Ambium, Gabapentin (Neurontin), Vitamins B, CALCIUM, D, FISH OIL, MAGNESIUM, TYLENOL,
"I have Fibro - Fibro doesn't have me"