Thank-you for your post and info.
I have promised my doctor I will stay on Cymbalta for 2 more weeks before making a final decision.
I take Amitryptyline in the evenings to help sleep.....this does help me.
I take Demerol by 2pm on work days to help with pain so I can complete my shifts. If I could feel the way I do about 30 minutes after taking.....but keep that all day I would be great. I refuse to allow myself more than one tablet daily regardless of how much pain I am in. I generally do not take on days off.
Cymbalta 60mg once daily.....for about a month now approx...so far does absolutely nothing good or bad.
I have tried the all or nothing approach. After 3 weeks of different "withdrawl" type symptoms I fell flat on my face and was not able to function. Walking from my bedroom to the livingroom was so painful it brought tears to my eyes. I was off work for 4 weeks trying to cope, couldnt do it so in the end I had to decide that taking meds like it or not did give me some quality of life back. I gained a new appreciation for just how good I felt even at my worst while taking my meds.
I swim twice a week. I used to be a competitive swimmer so this was a natural way for me to get exercise. I push past the pain and swim 2kms with each workout. My goal is to swim 2 lake crossing swims next summer. I don't care how much Demerol I have to take to do it....I will do it.
At work I average 10kms of walking per shift. This includes ALOT of stairs......6 sets of stairs twice per hour. Honestly exercise is not helping me.
I used to think I was a baby when it came to pain tolerance. I now believe I tolerate my pain quite well, even on the days I whine....ALOT. I don't tell anyone my diagnosis as most people don't believe Fybromyalgia is real. My employer has asked for my diagnosis.....even my doctor refuses to allow them access to this information for the reasons that 1. they are not allowed to ask for a diagnosis and 2. Fybromyalgia is not considered a real condition by many.
I am a parent of 2 very busy kids, I work 12 hour rotating shifts and have a loving supportive husband. I have a drug plan that pays for everything and anything I could ever need, an employer who must support me whether they like it or not. I feel selfish for complaining and I often wonder just how many people with this awful condition and no support system, no longer choose to live this way.
Thats my whine for today.