I have been dx with 6 new things since September...not counting all the neck and shoulder issues form the car wreck several years ago...just feel on overload and alone with no family support.
I started seeing a therapist in September and she wanted to talk about all the deep dark secrets in the past...when I was just struggling daily to function due to chronic neck and shoulder pain for 3 1/2 years and at the time I had not been dx with FM.
My homework was to basically relive my childhood with much abuse from several family members. Things I had repressed and bringing all that out has created a gigantic avalanche of feelings and emotions which only made everything physically WORSE.
The therapist told me I needed a new support that my family was clueless (and the abusers) which is true and I know it is not healthy for me but I am so lonely dealing with all this myself. I told the therapist I wanted to deal with the childhood issues since she brought them front and center and not my day to day medical issues which is what she wanted to do which was further depressing me. I am angry she brought on this crap storm and now wants to talk about day to day stuff. My reason for going to her was to help me mentally with chronic pain. Going to her has been a NIGHTMARE!!!
Around Thanksgiving, I could tell she was at a loss as to how to help me cope with the mental part of the pain. I asked her if she had experience with dealing with patients with chronic pain and she said no.
The last time I saw her was December 5 and was appalled she asked me...if you were to kill yourself how would you do it? I was livid!!!! I thought going to a therapist was suppose to uplift and help me cope. So all the holidays came and yet and I was completely alone....
I feel I need help but do not have the energy to weed through the quacks. I wasted several months $1000.00 and I am much worse now than before. The thoughts of starting over and finding someone I am comfortable with makes me sick to my stomach and want to puke...
A kind word would be greatly appreciated as you guys are my only support now...
Mitro-Value Prolapse 77
MVA in May 08
Cervical radiculopathy/Herniated Disc 08
Nerve Damage 08
Degenerative Disc Disease 09
Cervical osteoarthritis 09
Depression from chronic pain from car accident 09
High Blood Pressure 9/11
Reynaud’s Syndrome 11/11
Severe Psoriatic Arthritis 12/11