Great post on anxiety...you're so right! When my fibro symptoms started, my normally high anxiety went right off the charts, and I began having panic attacks. Somewhere I read the scripture passage that you have as part of your signature, and I even highlighted it in my bible. I was so surprised when, a few days later when I got on this site, that I saw the same scripture, and I took it as a sign that I should really take it to heart!
Not trying to hijack your thread--I suffer from the same fears you describe. It's so hard to live in fear, but so hard to stop, too--I sympathize with you.
Right before my fibro pain started, I had swollen lymph nodes all over my body, and I was nearly incapacitated with fear, as I take a drug for rheumatoid arthritis that lists lymphoma as a possible side effect.
That was nearly five months ago, and I've had dozens of blood tests, which all came back normal. My rheumatologist is taking things slowly, because it's not that unusual for people with RA to experience lymph node swelling, but I'm freaking out. I see her again on April 12th, and she told me if the swelling is still there, she'll send me for a CT scan.
In addition to that, I have a pelvic ultrasound tomorrow, because I had some abnormal results on a pap test, which my gynocologist thinks is endometrial hyperplasia, but she's doing the ultrasound because I've been having pain, which I guess isn't normal for that. I had a colonoscopy a few weeks ago to rule out anything large-intestine related, but that came back ok.
Anyway, I'm not trying to make this about me, I'm just trying to let you know that I understand where you're coming from...it's so hard to know when to see a doctor about pain. I'm going to try to take Sherrine's advice, too!
"Life is not about
waiting for the storm to pass; it's about
learning to dance in the rain."
Possible Fibromyalgia, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Type 1 Diabetes, Grave's Disease, GAD, migraines, panic attacks, chronic hangnails (just seeing if you're paying attention!) : )