I have become very forgetful and tend to tune out half of what people say. I don't do that purposely, I just realize later that I have no idea what someone is talking about
. This is causing my husband to think that I don't listen to him because I don't care. This is and has been a big problem this entire weekend.
Doctor put me on Effexor XR and Wellbutrin XL. I have been on Effexor for many, many years and cannot go any higher on my dose. He added the Wellbutrin 5 weeks ago. I thought I would feel less depressed but, I feel worse sometimes. I am crying off and on and more tears than usual are coming out. I also feel like my pain has increased and I feel worse. I wonder if I should get off of it or not...don't see much benefit from it.
Sometimes I just want off of all medication. I have no idea who I really am anymore. I have been on meds for depression since 1991. I wish I could do a complete detox, but be asleep when it happens. The pain that I have put myself through to do that before is beyond what I could ever tolerate again. I am very active and was at a point that I could not even get up off of the floor. All of my bones and joints were cracking...it was horrible.
I really want to go to a Naturopath and get some advice. I am sick of living like this. I don't give up easily but, after a while this stuff gets old. I am 44 and was diagnosed in 1996. It all just keeps getting worse. I even quit smoking once for a year and a half and did not feel any differently. I stopped sugar for 2 months...still nothing. I am taking a slew of vitamins and supplements... So, what gives?!