Yup, I have decided winter is pure evil. My spine feels like it is being strangled when I go out into the cold. I am glad I don't live any further north, but the DC metro area's weather fluctuates so much. 18 F at the beginning of the week and 72 F. What the heck? Just stop that already!!!
If I don't quit flaring, I will never get these stupid dishes done. I can't sleep because my stinking rib cage, spine, and spasming abdominals are so painful. I am really peeved that I keep having level 9 or 10 pain. I don't want to disappoint people at work, my 9 year old son, my new husband who is living across the county until I move to CA in June, and myself.
I was running up to 2 miles...ok it was more jogging, but that is a gosh dang miracle. I was able to do that after getting on lyrica, adderall, and going to a PT and chiro who practice ART and Graston muscle release technique. I lost 25 lbs and was feeling great. I had not ran without collapsing into a huge flare up and being out for a day or two since before I got full fledged fibro symptoms in 2001. I waited 11 years trying all kinds of things.
And, I freaking got amoebas last month. I felt like the flagyl to get rid of them was sucking the very life force out of my body. What the heck???? Why do I get the most ridiculous illnesses? I had adult chicken pox that...I felt like...almost killed me...stupid secondary infection, viral pleurisy, mesenteric lymphadenitis, swine flu, strep with 105.3 fever where I passed out in the bathroom into the shower...and if I had not been up crying in pain since 3 am, I am sure I would remember more "weird", "I am not just a little sick" illnesses I have had. Immune system...oh immune system...you are being a passive-aggressive withholding jerk! Why won't you do your job? OK that was mean... no name calling. I take it back.
WHY!!! Why won't my body work the way I want it to?
I know I am not the only one...because...duh...we are all on this forum, but sometimes I just get mad anyway. I just don't like it, and I am not a little old 90 year old woman, for crying out loud, whose body is likely and should be deteriorating and ill. I have been having chronic pain since I was 23 years old, and I am 34 now. I will probably live until I am 103 because that would be really funny and ironic...yeah... ha ha ha
I want a vacation from this. Someone tell me it is going to be ok.
Post Edited By Moderator (Sherrine) : 2/12/2013 10:37:32 AM (GMT-7)