Just need to vent and (again) get some support..
So, brief recap..(sorry if this is out of place, but I know you all get how docs thinking we are fakers can be stressful)...
In February I went to our local e.r. with severe abdominal pain (most of you also know me from ostomies threads)..They did a c.t. scan (34th in 18 months), and said it was an ovarian cyst..
They made a call, and got me transferred to a surgical hospital ( one that I am established at), and I was seen by a gynocological oncologist (didn't have cancer, but that office is the one that did my hysterectomy, and had to take out my right ovary and a grapefruit sized cyst in October)..SOOO, she sees me, does NO testing, and says "Well, since Dr. S couldn't FIND the left ovary in October, I am not going after it, I would probably do more damage than good, so we are not touching you"..
She then released me, with instructions to follow up at a pain clinic, see a psychiatrist ( because all this pain HAD to be in my head), and do an MRI.
Fast forward, I did MRI..when asked who I wanted to see for a follow up, I said I would go to that office's Nurse Practioner that comes to an office closer to me..
3 weeks ago, I get a call from the main office. I can NOT follow up with NP, as I have to go to main office for a follow up concerning my MRI, to "discuss treatment options" WTH???????
So, I told secretary that I didn't feel as thought it was important for me to go all the way over there (4 hours and a ferry ride away), when she wasn't willing to do anything about
it anyway. I would just follow up with NP, I was fine with that. Secretary said she would call me back.
Up til now NO ONE has told me the results of the MRI..and my primary won't talk to me. She said I am beyond her scope of things, and I need to find another physicain to see. Ok, I appreciate her honesty, she is a FNP.. so, that is ok.. I get it, and don't hold that against her, she has done great things for me :)
So, yesterday I started having some other issues with constipation, and ended up calling my surgeon's office for advice.. Did what nurse said, things didn't go anywhere, so I called her today for an update..Asked her about
MRI, to see if they wanted a copy, as I have NO IDEA what it showed..
She says, hang on, checks it out..finally finds the report and says, "No, we have the report, don't need the actual films.. but you need to follow up with the gyno's"..
So, I go thru it all with her, about
how gyno told me back in February that she wasn't going to go in after any thing, so I felt that appointment would be a waste of time..
The nurse was EMPHATIC that I KEEP that appointment..she said it was impairitive that I go to that appointment..
So, now I freaking out
and have no idea WHAT to expect...
I know stress isn't a good thing..and to top if all off, my boss got yanked form worked VERY unexpectedly, and won't be back for the end of our "year".. (I am a tax preparer)
uuggghhhhhhhhhh... just want to cry..and I am TRYING not to add stress to hubby, as he is burdened with all our financial issues at the moment..but had to try and explain to him WHY i HAVE to keep the appt. Tuesday when I said I wanted to cancel it due to financial stress to go..uugghhh,
I don't feel like I have a full plate, feel as though I have moved up to a serving platter
hypothyroidism for 20+ years
total colectomy with ileo rectal anastomosis 1/12
newly diagnosed with fibromyalgia
Doc~ "you don't understand, and ostomy bag is life altering"
Me~ "NO, you don't understand, an ostomy bag is a bag of crap you deal with. Life altering is not being alive to be with my family"