I'm sorry you are having a rough day. Me too. Can I join the pity party? Two should be more fun than one.
I am sorry that you are having such a difficult time. You have been through so much. Hopefully your rheumy can help you get a handle on things. And I'm sure you look better than you think; we are our own worst critics.
Great big (((Hugs))) from a fellow fibromite who wishes you a better tomorrow.