For those who i've conversed with a lot on healingwell... I just want to say (in case I end up "disappearing") that I'm truly grateful to those who have been helpful, sincere and kind to me!
I could only hope that those from different boards will see this too... those who have been so kind!
I'm really struggling with things... and since it's so tough for me to get the help that I so desperately need from the medical community, I'm sick of obsessing my life over my health... over what's wrong with me... over what MAY or may not be wrong, etc. There's no way that I can be definitive over what all is so severely wrong with my body... and I'm sick of revolving my life around these questions and nothing else. I'm sick of living in this world of my own... where I'm pushing other people away, too!
I feel as though until I can genuinely get help and be diagnosed with what all is actually wrong, this forum is only allowing me to obsess even more... which in turn drives me crazy. It's kind of equivalent to doing hours upon hours of research on a daily basis on the internet.
I'm sure that you can understand that! I hope everyone who I've spoken to a lot though, and even those I've spoken to only briefly- are aware that I'm very appreciative of their help.
So, I may or may not leave here... at least for a long time, until I can get definitive diagnoses. If that ever happens, I will float around on those particular boards, knowing the answers finally
Thank you to everyone!
I hope to see you around again some day... if I decide to leave for now...
perhaps I will "pop in" from time to time.
I wish you all well,