I have had widespread mystery pain for a little over a year now. Its gotten progressively worse, and Ive gone through 3 doctors trying to figure out whats wrong. The last doctor thought it was fibro, so she set up an appointment with a pain clinic next month.
The only problem is I've just gotten a new job that requires me to be on my feet and moving for 8 hours. I only work the 8 hour shift twice a week and then I do a 4 hour shift on friday. That doesnt seem so bad until I add in that I'm a full time college student with night classes. My shift at work starts at 5am and some nights I dont get home until 9pm. College has streched me thin enough but I thought I could handle this job, I really did.
I had my first day yesterday. Thats how new this job it. Everything started fine, and then around hour 5 my feet and ankles started to ache. Then it moved up into my legs, and then my hips (which hurt me the most everyday). When I got off shift I went over to a friends house so I could try to rest before class. I really thought I was going to be fine. But in the middle of class, 5.5 hours after my shift ended, I got some of the worst pains Ive ever experienced. My whole body started to feel like it was breaking. It was everything from my neck all the way down. I had to leave early so I could try to get to my car.
I should not have driven home. Its a half hour drive to get back home, and I should have let my mom drive me. It was so hard to focus on the road (mostly because I was crying from the pain) and I went way below the speed limit. I dont really remember getting home last night, but I know I had a really strong pain killer, a really hot bath, then went to bed.
That brings me to this morning. I needed to skip my first class because I still hurt, and Im still trying to recover from yesterday. I really thought I could handle this job, but it just sent me into the worst flare Ive ever had. I have another 8 hour shift tomorrow and Im dreading it. Everyone says that because Im so young I shouldnt have any problems doing this, and I wanted to believe them so much. I should have energy and I should be able to handle all of this but yesterday was a huge reality check. I dont want to go to work because I dont want to feel that sort of pain ever again.
What if I didnt have those strong pain killers from a surgery I had a while back? I think I would have had to go to the hospital. What do I do when those run out?? Do I quit this job now rather than later? I dont think I can do this anymore and I feel so guilty.
Post Edited (MysteryPain2000) : 4/12/2018 3:26:35 PM (GMT-6)