Posted 1/22/2019 7:59 PM (GMT -7)
This sounds so similar to my daily dilemma! The golden question: push ourselves to complete exhaustion to be a functional adult, or be kind to ourselves and always listen to our body that says "let me rest!"
Some days, I push through the fatigue and soreness and accomplish a lot. Many days, I HAVE to at least try...I'm an ICU nurse and work busy 13 hour shifts that require both mental and physical endurance. I do take adderall intermittently to help me with attention and wakefulness which helps some days, and others not at all. I had worked night shift (7pm-7:30am) for many years, which gave me another excuse to sleep days away, sometime 48hrs almost straight through. I chose night shift as it allowed me to mask my fatigue and fog, as most night RNs are of course tired, and take 5 minute cat naps here and there. Now, I have gone to day shift in hope that I can feel better but nearly a year later, here I am just as drained as ever. I think I even functioned BETTER being awake for 24+ multiple days a week.
On days that I am off, I try more often to push myself to get up and get moving, even though I feel like tinman who needs to oil up. I often find myself completely drained after a few easy chores, like washing dishes and folding laundry, or even just grocery shopping. Then I'm doubled over from back and neck pain. I have more recently avoided anything I don't 'have' to do such as social engagements, because I'd rather rest. I still sleep so much--my child with special needs has even asked me if Im dying! Unfortunately, I think this cycle has made me feel worse overall...more withdrawn and tired, isolated, and uber depressed because I feel so lazy and unaccomplished. No clue how I once did heavy lifting and HIIT workouts at the gym 5x a week.
Ive tried the whole sleep hygiene thing and have kept a log. I have developed a routine (limit screen time early, hot sleepy tea, dark cool room and supplements) and stick to a bed time the best I can. Yet, I still cant seem to get up in the morning, even when I have to. Ive set up lights on smart plugs to make my room super bright before my alarm goes off. I'm even on the verge of being terminated from my job for oversleeping and being late, and my kids miss the bus at least once a week. I have personally found that I feel best when I get either 6 or 12 hours of sleep--still exhausted, but tolerable.
Here I have written this lengthy response with no advice, but moreso to empathize--you are not alone. I'm guessing the best thing to do here is to just keep trying until something feels right. I do suggest keeping a short log to be able to reflect on data, playing around with nap lengths (geez, I wish I could just nap for 20 minutes, but it almost always turns into 4+ hours), and different med/supplement combos.
I currently take magnesium and relora (an herb) at night that helps me to relax without residual medication induced morning grogginess. After swearing off all traditional pharm meds for a while, I'm giving things another chance. I've decided to try out Fluoxetine in the morning, adderall IR midday, and low dose amitriptyline a few hours before bed....and pushing myself to do some sort of light exercise daily.
Hopefully, we can find the sweet spot routine or a fountain of endless energy soon. Wishing you the best!
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