A time to heal:Nothing helps but time and God

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   Posted 3/5/2008 4:31 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello I am new to this but I just want to share my story with just 1 person that is going threw this emotional rollercoaster,this journey of a loved one being sick.My mama was my life she was my bestfriend she had my back no matter what. My mom had Hep C for 29years she never told anyone,everytime she got sick she always said "Its my pressure or i am not taking my water pills." We never knew until 6months before she passed because she got real sick and we went to the Dr. with her for answers,even then the Dr. asked my mom if it was ok that she told us. She said that my mom was in the "Ending Stages Of Liver Diseases".That my mom had 6 months to 1year to live. My Mom had all of these symptoms.
The symptoms of liver disease include:
  • jaundice (yellowing of eyes and skin)

  • severe itching

  • dark urine

  • mental confusion or coma

  • vomiting of blood

  • easy bruising and tendency to bleed

  • gray or clay-colored stools

  • abnormal buildup of fluid in the abdomen

The day she passed 10/27/2006

It seem like it was only yesterday, I can close my eyes and see that day ever so clear, 1205am getting off of work rushing to the hospital to check on mama getting there sitting in her room 1245am her doctor walked by and saw me in the room, she asked me to step outside she had to talk to me I went outside the room she said “I am so sorry there is nothing we can do we did all we could this is the final hours you need to go home and get some sleep and come back at around 8am and stay with her” she gave me a hug and then she left. I called my sister and told her you’ll need to come right now this was around 130am she said they would be on there way after she drop her husband off at work. I then left the hospital going home I text my sister and told her “my soul was hurting” when I got home I prayed to God that  “I know he is real and I know Jesus is his son that he sent him to die on the cross for our sins and I don’t want to lose my faith and that I am weak and I don’t understand why he is taking my mama and I need something I can see, he need to show his self to me because I know he is real but I am weak.” I got home and went to sleep at 215am. I slept until 800am at the hospital walking into the room seeing her in that bed oxygen mask on not feeling her there, leaving out of the room so they could get her cleaned up and into some clean clothes. When I returned to the room I could feel her in the room I remember going to the bed thinking “she is going to be alright running to her bedside calling her name “mama” but she did not responded, so I moved to the backside of the bed, maybe she could not talk but she may move her eyes to let me know she could hear me, rubbing her leg and touching her arm to let her know I was there watching her every move, but nothing as I stood there not knowing what to do at that moment her eyes began to move her eyes met mine and she spoke to my soul, not saying a word, its like our souls was talking to each other without saying a word, she want me to let her go and that she would be ok. I told my friend that was there with me “GO GET THE NURSE RIGHT NOW” she got up and run to find the nurse, I knew she was going to pass I felt it in my soul at that moment I let go so my mama could go to a better place where there would be no more pain and sickness, she took 3 breaths and passed away, the nurse came in and asks what going on, I said “she is gone.” I have never felt pain and hurt like I felt on that day, one of the three people that I love with every breath I take was gone. Now I had to do what I never wanted to do call my sister and brother and let them know mama was gone, now I had to pull it together so I sat there next to my mama and prayed that God would help me and send an angel to help and comfort me. I made the calls to my family and friends.

As I sat there waiting on the funeral home to pick her up, I remember I promised myself I would not leave her in Florida I would not leave until she was on her way back home (Oklahoma). The funeral home arrived did what they do, I kissed her forehead and said “see you in Oklahoma” they took her out the room. I thank God for his grace and mercy, I thank God for the power of prayer, and he answers all. I cant explain what happen but all I can say is that when I say ours soul was talking we never said a word it was if when our eyes connected our inter man was talking, I know that was God giving me what I prayed for that was my sign I needed. I have my good day and my bad days, I miss my mama everyday my heart still hurts I still cry but one thing I know is that God is real and I know I will see her not just in my dreams but again. I love you mama.   



Pink Grandma
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Date Joined Nov 2006
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   Posted 3/5/2008 7:02 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello Dreamzofthesupernatural. Welcome to HealingWell. I am sorry for the loss of your dear mom. I know how tough it must have been.
Have you tried going to a bereavement group. That's what you really need. If you have a hospice in your city they have a great program. They were a tremendous help to me when I lost my husband.
This forum is actually not for bereavement. Even though it has helped me by trying to help and support others that currently are dealing with Liver Disease themselves or their loved one is.

There's also a lot of bereavement groups online. Just google it.

Good luck..........And take care.
Pink Grandma
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When the going gets tough....the tough get going! Don't always know where I going but I get there anyways.

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   Posted 3/5/2008 9:30 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Dreamz, Just wanted to say how very sorry I am that you lost your mother to this terrible disease. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
There is always hope!

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