It's a cruel world we live in, taunting us with all its beauty,leaving us hoping for one more day. Having a bad day wishing it would all end like it started 3 years ago when I once again had this night terror. Which has haunted me since I was very young. I't kind of like the grim reaper. I remember having this shadowey figure coming toward me very slowly first time . I ran past it not knowing I needed to be near someone . Of course everyone was sleeping. So I slept on a chair in the kitchen, which was the closest room to my mom and dad. Since then I have had it many times even after I was marrid once my husband stopped me from jumping out a two story building. Numerous times husband has had to stop me while running each time I have that dream he comes closer and closer.
iThe last time December 14, 2006. He was right in my face,So I ran looking for my husband who actually was right next to me. I was sprinting so fast I thought I had seen him go into the bathroom so I ran faster an bam two time sort of like a rubber band. Then I don't remember a thing. The next morning I remember my grand kids we there and I just sat. Till my daughter in law came for the kidsl She took one look at me and insisted I go to the Hospital So after three hours She finally convinced me by threatning me with an "I'll call an ambulance" so there I was not able to sign my name. Then about a dozen Dr. asking me questions and i had to think for sooo long to give an answer. Then the feeling of having a bucket over my head. My brothers and sisters lined up against the wall. Tests For every thing especially my brain since I hit the door so hard,Well after a week and a half, they realize it was an overload of ammonia so they let me go home with my lactulose . Checked me every three weeks for six months,then it was time for a biopsy. After the gastro . did his thing. Didn't call back finally hubby called and his nurse told me the lab had let them know that the dr. had removed part of a limph node and some colon,know wonder I was in such pain worse then gallbladder surgery in the 70' they said no you'll have to waite a few months. NO NO now so they brought in someone who knew what he was doing. So now I know
Well by then we were scared so we insisted on another Dr. and biopsy, june
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