Not sleeping due to worry is not helping matters, Ailsa. I can understand your concern, but you have to take what meds you can, work with your doctors, and trust God. Staying awake worrying what MIGHT happen could actually cause it to happen due to stress, elevated BP due to stress, etc.
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